so, here it is, my music. :D  I hope you like it.  Feel free to comment. :D I did this for fun one night. :D A few of you have asked so here it is. :D :D HOpe you like it! Let me know what you think. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qaFXoCdKLY

Wow. Oh my god wow! :D It was the best time ever! The mazes were to die for. lol. no pun intended. We rode a couple of rides and that was cool. I am still traumatized by the corn maze. lol. The london maze was great! It was based on Jack the ripper and Frankenstein. My sister was giving me the gory history on the ripper. XP I took lot's of pics with the monsters. :D My hat was the bell of the ball. ;D It was a classic men's bell topper around which I tied a thick black satin ribbon with…

haha....I just wanted to put that. So, Minerva(see photos) had pups. XD Four. and they are so cute I can't stand it. lol. I will put up pix. they are sitting up on the bed with me, while thier mommy takes a potty break. lol. I'm so board. Xd I need to get going soon so I can pick up my sis. ;D *bounces*OK so guess what?! Brandy is back! And I have just made some wonerful friends! I'm so excited, and it's the excitment keeping me sane these days. lol. The finches have been everywhere this…

So in light of the storms I am navigating, the fingers of the sun still manage to push through the black bruises of the sky. I had a blast today with Kestrel. XD I love her very much, she's my very best friend and my sister. I got a letter from my favorite patriarc today. ;D He always puts a smile on my face. :D I had mongolian bbq today. ;P~ (<---drool) I bought a floral hair clip. (so pretty!) XD We played in Clare's, and I was thinking of all the things I was going to do when I get my…

It really and truely is hard to hold a candle in the cold november rain. Today, marks confirmation of him being gone. I got to hear him tell me in a letter how, he did all he could, have to "heal on your own". Here I thought he was a tough guy. Said no matter what he would be there. "nothing will ever keep us apart." Love sucks. Hard core. I'm not sure I want to be in that again. lol. I am so crushed right now. How could he do that? I can't fathome it. After five years, this.... poof. just…

Well, last week was very very sad. I once again got accused of doing something I didn't, and thus kicked out of the studio. I was accused of slander. You can't imagine how that made me feel. They wouldn't tell me who said it. Which makes me wonder if it is true. I know times are hard for all of us. I am patient with them for thier times, but it was not returned. I don't like being used. I was told a long time ago that they use people and toss them away. C usually doesn't keep close friends,…

Well, how are things? I have not had the pleasure to be on in quite sometime. .... I miss it very much. I miss my escape here. :D I love what has been done to the place. ;D the colors are outstanding. :D

It's so funny. I feel like I'm waking from a bad dream. I was talking with Megan yesterday and I said somthing about feeling bad and that I didn't like it. So, you know what Roma(age 8) says "well, if you don't want to feel bad, don't" she said tihs with a smile and a matter…

wow, my ear itches. XD and on that note..... I'm sorry I have been away. Been busy with a show that nobody thanked me for helping with. Jerks. I did the make up for our ballet that we just put on and you know I wasn't mentioned in the program. I have to admit that hurt. My creations walked out there on that stage and no one even knew. *shrugs. sighs*oh well. not much that can be done right. lol. It was a stressful show. Never wanted to hit someone in the face so bad, so I cried instead.…

*laughs*didn't know what to put for the title. lol. I hope all you mother's out there had a wonderful day. I did. :D mine brought me a dead rat. XD I woke up to it laying there, and was just like.....um thank you my loves. *kiss and hugs*I threw it outside afterwards. lol. Nothing says I love you like a dead rat. I played on here for a bit this morning and got to help decorate for the greatest mom in the world...Essme! That was fun! Unfortunatly I had to pick up my bro, so I was unable to…

Night time. It is the hardest time. That is the time that all is quiet, and I am by myself. Thoughts of the last two weeks reel in my head like an old movie. The dust is begining to clear, and I....don't feel a thing. Maybe it's a bit of shock still left over, but I don't know. I still have more to purge before it is over. This has been like a bad flu. ugh, i hate the flu. The night is my favorite time. It's nice, I don't have to pretend as hard. I can be myself and no one…

So, today is a brand new dawn. I am free of the control. *smiles*It's kind of an odd feeling to be free after being held back so long. It will be nice to spread these wings again. They are dusty and tattered, but they will do. :D I have to learn to breath again. My inner self was in critical care for many years, but now i can feel myself returning. And I think I will make a full recovery. *winks* I couldn't have done it alone. I am greatful to have the support that I have had. It makes me…

My dearest Judas,

This is how I will forevermore refer to you. I at least will be merciful enough to give you that much. It's more mercy then you ever showed me. I can be cruel, but I don't want to be. I had a previous post to this, but you were spared by the powers that be. The window closed. I take that as a sign it was not ment for any eyes but mine. I gave you all I could. I needed shelter from my tempet storms and you cast me out. What happens between my blood and I is…