I still feel heavy. I am getting mixed signals from my friend. She hates me but she talks to me, so go figure her psycosis. *eyeroll*mom went all buggy too. So i'm like "ok really?". I apparently forgot to go to work yesterday. Yep. I did. Litterally, I woke up and went to help move, and i saw jerry later and he said "how come you didn't come to work today?" I was all what? and he said that i said i would trade days so that i could help mama d move. I thought about it for a sec. and sure…

As i see you walk away

I could fell my heart shatter into piece's

i try my best to forget this

But i fail!

Cause i know your always in my heart

And when that day come's i'll run into your arms and never let go

R.i.p Daddy

I have two songs in my head after writing that. "a new life" from jekyll and hyde. and "the show must go on" queen. wierd. I am sort or getting sleepy. I might eat some of my dinner that has now gotten cold. I have a full day again tomorrow, and I don't need to be getting sick or anything. ;D I just missed amber, and I missed liz earlier. ugh, that's frustrating. I was too busy crying. XD I stoped now, after two and half hours. XD You would cry too if you hurt this much. I'm feeling a little…

I was having the most wonderful time this afternoon. I got to talk to my favorite person, and a few of my other friends. I even met a woman named Athena, she's part of the volturi. She was very very nice. :D So i was so excited about that. I laughed so hard that I nearly passed out, which is something because I have never done that before. *laughs*pass out i mean. I am sick to my stomach now. I need to eat, but i can't I need to rest but I can't, and now I have yet another ultamatum. I am…

I have decided that I am tired of being told how unimportant and such that I am. I was not happy when i came into the studio, so she knew I was upset with her. I'm just a little tired of being told i don't do anything, when I don't get payed except for going to classes they say i don't come to anyway. *eyeroll* In the long run they are not important. *winks* As to my best friend being the way she is, she really needs to take a chill pill. So I was upset wed. flipping duh! I got into serious…

I didn't sleep again, this time it was because I was messing around with my page and playing with music, so five minutes turned into two hours. And before I knew it, "why am I tired?" was asked, and then I looked at the clock. *laughs*oh yeah. *laughs* When I get on a project I somtimes forget that unfortunatly I need to sleep. XD At least I'm not haveing bad dreams. *shudders* I went back over to help mama Dian with the move. We got alot done and I am headed back tomorrow morning to help…

Today is a new day. :D I have a sour tummy from yesterday's trip to the movies. *laughs*I put too much salt, and I like a bit of salt, but salt does not care. XD It's no big, nothing a pepsi and lots of water won't cure. I guess haveing somthing on your stomach before you eat a bunch of popcorn. lol.

Well, I apparently have a fan. *smiles*That's most interesting. *smiles*I think I like it. *laughs* Crap! I gotta jet, I promised to be there and help out today. Oi, I am so…

*sigh*well, what can i say. Still not sure on that yet. I had a nice cry, had too. That's the odd thing about me I suppose is that I will laugh when you laugh, and cry when you cry. Fall down to make you smile. >.< i just bit my tounge! *tears.*litterally, i sneezed and chomp. T.T that was most unplesant. *laughs* anyway, it's funny. Because just when i think no one is listening...bam....a voice. I know and acknowledge that I am just a whispering voice in a crowded room. It's just…

It would be nice to go a day, with out my foot in my mouth. *smacks head.* Geez, this being yourself stuff is very hard. I am one with the blunt, *weak laugh* and that gets translated waaaaay wrong sometimes. *sigh* And i hit one more outta the park. *laughs*oh well, what can you do.

Got the most interesting thing in my mail box. It didn't come from a group that I can see, and yes i did actually look several times. It came from *pause*an unusual source. I thought this person…

Whooo weee! ask for excitment and ye shall recieve....in full. *laughs*So, haveing a better day today. Same cannot be said for others. heh. XD MC was .;.........interesting. The pc's i was having were flipping AWSOME!!! XD I got to talk to three of my favorite ppl. One of whom is one of two special one's. *big grin*I am sooooo bouncy right now. *sigh* I could just run i am soooo hyper. *laughs* but alas, my body is crying for sleep. I most assuradly will sleep very well tonight. *smiles*…