The other day while driving home from the store, the radio was on and this song came on  "Never grow up", as I was listening to it, I turned to look at Shay fast asleep in her car seat holding her doll,she looked so peaceful and so little and suddenly the song started to make sense to me, I did wish she would never grow up, that no one would hurt her and that all things remain  as they were now.…

Just like the past 3 years, this mothers day was perfect, Sam spoils me the whole weekend, not that it's only time when he does but he says it's more special than any other occasion because he also celebrates our wonderful family, and he is right my family is wonderful and perfect.

This weekend started Saturday morning when he did not allow me to get up and make them breakfast he said he would do it, I got up with him though but he did not allow me to help not even with Shay, he took…

Sam,

Laying here in this hospital bed has only made me realize, I have fallen in love with you that I cannot be without you, right now it feels like if a part of me is missing and it is because you are not here with me. I know you blame yourself for what happen, Jared told me, but please know that it was not your fault, it was an accident, and one I don’t hold you…