When I was a young age I feel in love twilight and i will all was think that I would be Bella and someone will be Edward and would read the mind of others and i would want to know and see what there are talking me. 

Sometimes i will watch the movies all the time and read the books all day and i would  not go to sleep when i read the book 

Things have changed but has it really? Sure most things have changed, sure everything changes.. But really nothing has changed? Part of me is grounded the other part is still on the run.. Constantly running. The nagging feeling of never having a proper place in this world.. Wondering what it would feel like to have someone to love me.. To love me for me.. Wondering getting tired of waiting.. Tired of hoping and praying for the same thing for it always to have…

I look out the window of my suite in Volterra. A group of Volturi, cloaked in capes gliding down below me. Moving through their lives so seamlessly, while I, here feel as though I am stuck. 

Turning my glance from the scene outside to my reflection in the window glass. My hand raises to my neck where my Cullen crest sits. It has been there for as long as I can remember and even before that, I had visioned and dreamed of the day that I could belong and feel this very crest…

I am simply having the most fun matching the fabric from my face masks to my ensemble. Whether you are matching the fabrics exactly or just having the hues play off one another, you know I am obsessed with any new accessory I can work with! 

See some of my favorite matches: …

With the change of seasons fast approaching from summer to the colder season. I like to view the beautiful colors of not only the flowers in the gardens but of the leaves on the trees as well. The colder season has always been more enjoyable for me. With my passion for art, the colorful landscapes are a beauty to behold. I have attempted in the past to capture the beauty with my many paintings and drawings, it just doesn't do it justice. Lately however I have had to put a hold on my passion,…

50 across: Perus Capitol.  

My unused pen tapped anxiously against the heavy mahogany desk, the white sheets of paper in front of me nearly blank. Taking the cap off the pen felt like cheating in a way, eluding to the next answer before the question had even been presented. In all honestly, the exercise was more for my sanity than enjoyment.

So many thoughts in one place. Voices bounced off the inside of my skull in a myriad that caused a kind of headache; a…

Looking into the mirror, my new reflection gazing back at me with eyes of bright ruby red.

It had spent the majority of my life with golden eyes that were warm and welcoming, always seeing my place with the Cullens and our pact to protect human life from our thirst. I had never questioned this way of life, it felt almost natural for me.

I remember the effort of guiding Jasper through this new way of life and watching his conflict between his biological…

Aerie is 6.

Those words are both terrifying and miraculous at the same time.

Aerie is SIX years old. SIX. She is a true testament of love, devotion and absolute chaos. She goes from zero to 60 in a flash. She is fast, furious, funny and feral. She loves mud,  princesses, pirates, sticks, bugs, dresses, dirt, hair bows, shorts, flowers, motorcycles (damn it, Jake!) and rain.

She is everything you can imagine all balled up into a tiny frame with an angelic face. She is all…

The summer days bleed into nights and pass with such ease and care. I find myself sitting and reminiscing about days gone by. Jane and Alec, Renata, Heidi, Felix and Demetri... we were all quite good friends at one time. Some of my fondest memories are of that time, carefree days and nights, parlor games, hide and seek, tag, cricket and a game that is, today, called, Capture the Flag or Man Hunt. Sometimes our games stretched into week long escapades of endless laughter and fun. To feel that…

My little girl will be turning six years old in just a few short months. How can this be? It was only yesterday I rocked her in the old chair on the porch as the quiet snows fell. The  blink of an eye since her first steps to Billy, a breath since her first word. (Woof meaning wolf for her beloved brother Embry.) She took off like a flash and is now a confident, strong, brave little girl.

She is the mini female version of her Daddy. She has no fear and almost as much sense,…

No one had any thought of what might take place on this current trip to Voltera.  Aro was making a play for Alice again.  Alice had seen it coming, she had known that he would send someone to try and temp her to join his coven again.  Alice as always had confided in me.  Since she had found me, there had been no secrets between us.  I worked to keep the worry from our family once Renata had shown up in Forks.  She and a few other guards.  Their presence put not only our family on edge but…

I can feel the uneasiness in LaPush since the Cullens went on their trip.  Quil hasn't been around much due to his having to be on patrol a lot more.  Same with everyone else too. As if the quarantine isn't enough stress as it is. It sucks. I had to have my 16th birthday with only my mom and sister and Quil. I mean it was nice and everything and I got to talk to Aunt Emily and Uncle Sam and everyone on the phone but it just wasn't the Sweet 16 birthday I had expected. I know that no one was…

Aro said it was nice to have activity, once again, here in the castle but I must say, I disagree. The noise is unbearable.  
I heard it stated that I was like, "The old man who stands and yells, "Get off my lawn!" 

The choice my family and I make to live our immortal lifestyle the way we do, having compassion for human life, has always and will always put us at risk. 

We challenge the very nature of being an immortal and therefore we challenge the power of The Volturi. They look at our family as radicals, as a threat to revolutionize how vampires can coexist in a world predominantly designed for humans. 

We know this, we understand the repercussions of our choice in…

So many of our friends and family are home right now staying safe. During this time, it's easy to feel stuck in a rut and not have access to some of the ways we treat ourselves outside of the home. 

Here are simple and fun ways to use some of the supplies you may have at home and use them as a DIY Face Mask @ Home. 

On a clean face, place one of the ingredients below of your choosing on your skin for 15-20 minutes. Rinse off and use your favorite moisturizer to…

To all of our Friends & Family around the World,

Now is a time where there is a lot of anxiety and stress. With the COVID-19 top of mind, I want to reach out and let you know that while you might be changing your lifestyle or even socially distancing yourselves, you are always welcome in the Cullen home.

Dr. Carlisle Cullen has been working around the clock making sure that he is taking care of the community in Forks.

As the Cullens are not at risk of sicknesses like…

Pearls are a fashion accessory staple in my wardrobe. They can add a simple, sophistaicated accent to any ensemble.

Here are some of my favorite and versatile ways to adorn yourself in pearls.…

My grandmother's boyfriend who i am close to passed away the other day..He had cancer before but beat it,Than it came back again with a vengeance.He had a stroke.We thought his cancer was stable.Instead of taking care of his cancer & giving him treatment.They Were to worried about his stroke(Which paralyzed him on his left side)We think that he passed cause of his cancer spreading.Instead of them stabilizing it.All in all..I am sad to see him go..I am really going to miss…

As we bid adieu to 2019 and usher in 2020 we are given a chance to honor our past, live in our present and anticipate our future. 

When I look back on 2019, I am grateful for Jasper, my Family and my Friends. We have surrounded one another with love and support. 

Living in the present is always a struggle for everyone..we tend to get stuck in our past or focus entirely on hoping for the future. As we are stuck in the past and dreaming of the future, we neglect…