Growing up is hard to do

[Renesmee Black-Cullen]

Turning my iPod and playing some soft classical music, I pull the journal closer that Carlisle gave me to keep track of the signs that my final growth spurt is just around the corner.

25^th February 2013

This week was a bad one, my cramps and pains are definitely getting worse. I am so relieved that Jake had night patrols this week. Reason being that he will probably want to guard me 24/7 and not allow me to do anything.

It seems that the worse cramps and pains are late at night just after I have fallen asleep. I get woken up with this immense pain in all my limbs and so I have to admit I am really tired this week.

I don’t want to freak anybody out so I have tried to be brave and have not completely been honest in how severely painful it’s been. But I think I will have to call Grandpa tomorrow and tell him that it’s getting worse.  To be honest I am very scared. Nahuel and I exchange emails on a regular basis or as regularly as his travels allows. He has warned me that this last growth spurt will hurt the most. I have really been trying to cover up my changing body from my friends and think I am very lucky to have Aunt Alice to help me make me look a bit older so when I have this final growth spurt then hopefully nobody will notice the difference in my appearance.

Although this growth spurt really has me worried and scared, I am also excited because this will be it. This is how I will be for the rest of my life.

More than that I am so excited for what it means for my future with Jake. This will mean that we can make more mature plans. Who knows maybe even a wedding in the near future?

I do feel it’s getting closer the final growth spurt and think tomorrow I will have to go and speak to Grandpa and then we will need to tell my Mom and Dad that they might need to come home for a week or so.

I am so thankful that I don’t have to do this alone. My family and Jake is really my solid foundation and I know that with their help, I will get through this.

[Renesmee Black-Cullen]

Thank you Angelia and Lisa and Mom for all your support

[Angelia]

Ness, sometimes the brave thing is to admit when you need help.  You need to call Mom and Dad.  You also need to call your Grandfather who is a doctor and can help you.  Your Grandma,  Aunts and Uncles can help do research to see if anything will help you.  You shouldn't do this alone.  <3

[Blair Mell]

Ness 

I am always there for you and I will always be there to help if you need me please let me try to help if you need it 

Lisa