A few nights ago, while I was watching Ayasha sleep, I started remembering the day she was born, I remembered being scared and in pain and I even remembered yelling at Sam that it was all his fault. I remembered all the support I had that day from Becs ,Dr. Cullen and specially from Sam, he did not let go of my hand even when I was digging my nails into his flesh, he never let me go,it was only until the last moment when Dr. Cullen called him over to his side so he could be the first one to carry our baby, that he let go of my hand.

I remember that I was crying so much that day first of the pain but later from the joy of seeing my baby for the first time, that truly is an indescribable feeling, I don't think I'll ever be able to put into words what I was feeling , the moment Sam layed her on my chest for the first time, when I heard her cry, her scent, her little perfect face, just the feeling of her, finally in my arms, just  in that moment all the pain that I was still feeling fainted away and made everything worth it, it was in that moment when I started crying of the joy of just having that moment to remember.

And today I am sitting here in her room, watching her sleep almost 2 years later and so many wonderful memories come to my mind again like when we brought her home and Sam and I could barely sleep, but neither one of us minded , we were happy and still are, then images of her in this past 2 years flashed before me,like when she smiled for the first time, and her little laugh and giggles specially when Sam tickles her, when she started crawling, walking, talking, every memory of her is one to cherish and moments that neither Sam or I would change for anything in the world.

Ayasha and Sam, mean everything to me, just watching them play or seeing them take a nap together, every time she says "mommy" or Sam tells me he loves me, melts my heart away and make me the most happiest women in the world, there is nothing I would not do for either of them. I just love them so much.

Just as I was remembering and re-living the past 2 years of my little angel's life I heard ther little voice calling me and in that moment I came back from the past, when I turned to look at her, I could not help but to move to her side and wrapping her in my arms ,kissing her forehead and smiling down at her, just in that precise moment Sam came home from patrol and just by looking at each other in the eyes we connected in a way I know we were both thinking the same thing, he came over to us and gave us each a kiss and picked us up from Shay's bed and took us both to our bedroom, that night all 3 of us cuddled up together and fell asleep in each other's arms.

There are things that are really priceless in this world, and those things will always include the ones you love the most , like in my case all those moments include my daughter and my husband, having them by my side is PRICELESS.

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Comment by Emily Uley on April 6, 2012 at 11:55am

Yes it is and I am happy as well *smiles*

Comment by Emily Uley on February 24, 2012 at 10:10am

I am very happy *smiles* and we can't wait to meet you as well, just a warning she most likely will make you play dolls with her.


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