An Interactive Twilight Experience.
I was inspired by Garrett's post to tell you how my Christmas was. Christmas used to be my favorite holiday. Trees, lights, food, and especially family. I would get excited every year but then several things happened. First, I worked retail for 20 years. And the last 10 years kind of just took all the happiness out of Christmas for me. It is too commercialized. Adults who should know better, and remember what Christmas truly is about, are entitled, rude, disrespectful, and spoiled. But more than that, since 2009, I have lost my mother, and my younger brother (both to cancer, mother to a myriad of other diseases as well). Christmas lost its appeal to me. I didn't even put a tree up. Yeah, I tried for the sake of the children I teach, my friends, and especially my father. I cooked, I made crafts with children, and I went to the annual cancer rally at the Clifton Mill where Christmas is on display with over 3 million lights. The only shopping I did was for groceries and online. Many people got Gift Cards. For the nephew, I ordered his stuff online. I don't purposely go shopping in stores anymore because crowds make me extremely panicky. Another result of working retail. Not to mention, I'm not on my anti-anxiety medication so I purposely don't put myself out there. Christmas used to be a favorite holiday when the family was together and we made memories. Now it just feels like drudgery and something to get through. I understand how Garrett and many others can be depressed this time of year. I'm there with them. I hope one day I'll be able to enjoy it more but right now I'm glad it's over for another year.