It is very weird how life can be happy and sad at the same time. It can go in a good direction, but in just a second it can go in the wrong direction. You think everything is going well, but at some point your whole world crashes down. Like mine.
One of my reasons for being is my aunt Huilen. She is all I have, besides my friends, but she is the only that keeps me alive. I love her so much. She’s like a mother to me. She is a great auntie and she always takes care that I have everything that I need. And, it's great to have company in your life. I love when we sit together at the table and talk, I love when we hunt together, I love when we sit in the grass together, I love everything we do together!
She leaves from time to time... I don't know the reasons. I think that happens because she is unhappy. Although, she disagrees with me on that. She says that sometimes she needs some space and some time to be alone and think about her life. Sometimes I believe her... but sometimes I don't.
When she gets back she’s always very happy... and so am I. I hope that she will stay with me forever, but I can't demand that from her. I want her to be happy.
But somehow... I have a feeling that I can't accomplish that. And she goes away again and leaves me unhappy.
And... it’s happened again. She left... again. And I am alone... again. Every time she leaves I'm even sadder and sadder. My heart breaks into tiny peaces. I try to explain myself why she left... and sometimes it helps.
But for now... right now I am completely broken.