Lately, memories of my human life seem to be plaguing my mind.  There is no reason for it.  It is not as if I can have a dream and have those images engrained into my memory.  These images have been hidden deeper and as of late have made themselves known.  Often times, when I am in my chambers, I have been receiving quick clips of what was once my human life.  The life I lived before I was turned into what I am today.  Most of my images have been of my mother and father.  Their appearances…

Tonight I got jailed on Twitter for the very first time.

@AmyRanker stepped in and created a protest poster to get me freed from behind the bars!Thank you, Amy! I think it worked as I'm 'free' once again!

~ CC…

https://thecullensonline.ning.com/group/currentevents/forum/topics/esme-needs-closure

Some thoughts after my conversation with Esme

I sit here writing this feeling completely helpless as Esme slips out the back door in search of her own answers under the guise of needing a hunt. She hunted a day or…

Innocence Lost - Part 3



As I reached the top of the ladder I saw him. I jumped with a thud, my feet hit the ground running, he was behind me, catching up with great speed. My mind raced. I knew he was one of them, his eyes and feral expression was obvious. I ran like I had never run before, dodging trees, jumping over fallen limbs and rocks until I hit the clearing out behind the church. I didn't dare look behind me, that would just slow me down. I felt myself being lifted as if I…

The castle has been rather quiet as of late.  Demetri and Santiago are off in Switzerland trying to find the truth about what is causing the deaths of humans out there.  There was a hunch that it could be vampires, but they are not certain yet.  I've been in constant contact with Santiago the most over the progress of their mission.  So far, nothing looks promising.  Not much is being found.  With these two guys gone, the castle has been considerably a lot calmer.  Although I am admitting…

At first glance you see the well groomed beauty before you. You think that she is self centered and extremely self confident. If you take a moment and look a little deeper you see a woman that was hurt by persons or things of her past. These things have molded her fiery personality.

Her regrets and choices have created a fierce companion for Emmett. Who…

This morning, I was graced with having the company of Lady Sulpicia on a horse ride out of the city so I could feed.  However, it wasn't a routine feeding excursion that we'd usually take.  I stumbled upon an e-mail a mortal had sent my way and some of the accusations enraged me.  So, I felt like taking my anger out on a handful of mortals, feeling that if I could torture them and drain them completely while satiating my hunger, I would feel better and at ease.  Wouldn't you know, it did…

The Cullens call themselves a real family.  I laugh at that.  It amuses me because, if you look at their "family," it's quite dysfunctional and weird.  How is it that you can all have your mates under one roof and not one of them even has any kind of blood relation?  How can you call that a family?  It's a coven and that's it.

Real family is related by blood. Born of the same mother (not "reborn" from the same maker). I do not call Aro my father. He is my maker. I had a mother…

The Boy who Cried Wolf

Aesop's Fables 

There once was a shepherd boy who was bored as he sat on the hillside watching the village sheep. To amuse himself he took a great breath and sang out, "Wolf! Wolf! The Wolf is chasing the sheep!"

The villagers came running up the hill to help the boy drive the wolf away. But when they arrived at the top of the hill, they found no wolf. The boy…

I am certainly not powerful by any means.  Have I been blessed yes, I would say that I have been.  Sekhmet has blessed me beyond my dreams.

My uncle raised me to be a street performer in Cairo, Egypt.   He was a superstitious man and would pray or make offerings to the old gods.  My favorite of the gods was Sekhmet.  Her name means the one who is powerful. 

My uncle would show me how to do some magic tricks…

April, 9 1945

Dearest Esme:  

Two weeks have now passed so I am free to tell you of certain personal experiences and incidents that have happened on a recent combat mission.

There was tension in the air for days before. It was like a calm that precedes the storm.  I could feel that there was a big job coming and coming soon.  I wished it would come in a hurry, for the suspense of anticipation was…

I come back to the hotel to catch up on some work and take Tia & Kebi out for an evening of fun.  I notice that Tia is not in the hotel room.   She must be at the spa.  I walk over to the desk and notice a note on the laptop.

It is in Kebi’s handwriting.  I start to read. Kebi says she can no longer just sit idly by waiting for Amun to come home.  She has asked that we do not go and look for her and to take care of each other.

After reading the…