new year means new beginnings....

[Kayla Wilkie]

so its a new year... and that means new beginnings....

i am definetly glad to see 2009 end... it was not my best year... for many reasons... but i am planning on moving on...

ive decided to get help to deal with my depression, which knowing i am depressed is the first step to recovery,... or so i am told... i know i have a long long road ahead but i also know that i have a great support system to get me through it...

I am planning on starting school again over the summer, which for me will be a big step in becoming the improved version of myself, notice i say improved not new... i know im great how i am but i need a few tweeks...lol... so heres to finally getting my teaching licensing....

I am losing weight, this is something i started doing last year and plan on doing until i hit my goal size of a 12... i refuse to look at the scale because it lies... muscle weighs more than fat and if im a little heavy but with muscle then im healthy...


I also refuse to be the welcome mat anymore... its not good.... all my life i have let people walk all over me and im done with it.... i deserve to be treated like a queen... this means no more men with problems.... especially the ones who are on bad terms with exwives...

this year is about making a better me and providing a better life for my wonderful beautiful daughter... and i will do it...

BECAUSE I AM...
STRONG
BEAUTIFUL
INTELLIGENT
CARING
AND CAN DO ANYTHING I PUT MY MIND TO

I AM A....
MOTHER
WOMAN
QUEEN IN MY OWN CASTLE....

I WILL NOT...
LET OTHERS TELL ME HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE
BE PUSHED AROUND OR WALKED ON
QUIT

I WILL....
BE STRONG
SURVIVE ANYTHING THAT COMES MY WAY
BE A BETTER PERSON FOR MYSELF AND MY DAUGHTER
BE MY OWN SELF

always and forever,
Kayla

"yesterday is the past, tomorrow the future, today is the present, so treat it like the gift that it is"