I had a rough past growing up. i was always like an outcast. i was always picked on for various reasons. and those reasons i will not explain cause they make me cry a lot.i felt like i didn't belong. 10 yrs ago my mom had passed away and i was devastated. Forgive me but for certain ppl i will hold grudges for a very long time.I was never the same since then. I did go into NJROTC to get self dicipline and it worked. if i had the chance to do it again i really would. sometimes i desire revenge so bad but i don't want to go to jail so i drop it. Like they always say: 'what goes around, comes around' or in other words Karma. my life is like living in the depths of hades....not that much but still. at least i met some good ppl who cheer me up here on cullens online. if it wasn't for those few then i wouldn't be where i am now. some of those ppl include the following: Tanisha, Carlisle,Esme and Kika. without them along with many others i'll get nowhere.