Because of Him

[Taiga Vera Vladmira Rogers]

Because of him I cannot sleep
Because of him I hate the moon
Because of him I cannot eat what I want
Because of him I have butterflies in my stomach
Because of him I actually like to wake up in the morning
He changed everything for me
I changed everything for him
I just wanted him to acknowledge me
I made agreements with him
I changed for him
Yet everything changes for me
Changes I don't want
Because of him I became untrue to myself
Because of him I became untrue to others
Because of him I cry in my room alone
Because of him I lay alone in the living room staring at a blank flat screen
Because of him my stomach hurts
Because of him my emptyness returns
Because of him I am sucked into the empty hole
My stance has changed
My attitude has changed
Everything...has changed
Not necessarily good change
Tonight I am sure I will lay alone in my room
Or go to the forest and do nothing but stare at the night sun
But I am sure that Because of him I feel alone
All I wanted were words of love
Of gaurentee but i shall never get them as of now
Thats all I wanted to hear once from him
But because of him I give up