3 years

[Lindsey "Littlebit" Sullivan]

I can't believe its been 3 years. You know I've heard "don't worry, Lindsey, it gets easier". Easier, when? cause it still hurts just thinking about her. It hurts worse when I think how she won't be there when at Thanksgiving in Mayo, when my older cousin Ashley gets married, or when I get married.

My Grandma made thanksgiving, thanksgiving in Mayo, it hasn't been the same without her. I remember one year, we had a boys against the girls but I was on the boys sides cause I fight like a boy, I was showing my younger cousin Garret how to scare my sister Grace, my example, just a little showing of spit. Well long story short the spit chain broke and landed in her eye. She told my Grandma, all she did was yell not to do it again. The first year in Mayo was weird, I cried myself to sleep every night, it wasn't the same with out her. When it came the actual Thanksgiving day, I took one look at my grandpa and his eye were glass looking, I walked over to his arm and we let the tears slide a bit, not long enough for anyone else to know (I guess thats who I got my holding it in from). 

 

  I'm still waiting on it to get easier, does it really? Or is that just what people say to make it easier for them to sleep at night and pray that they were right? I feel so numb just thinking about her and my grandpa walking together holding hands like they did in Mayo

[Lindsey "Littlebit" Sullivan]

thank you Pamela, this year is going to be harder my grandpa died Christmas morning last year.

[Pamela Marie]

I'm sorry. It hurts a lot to lose someone so close to you. The day after my grandpa passed away, I cried..all day. Since then, I've been numb to it. I know one day I will break down. I'm thinking about you. *hugs*