So Iam another year older...where does the time go?! How did my life get so out of control? How am I going to be able to get it back in order? Do I dwell on the negative too much? Its funny cause when I write about it I can see the answers to all these questions. All I can do is find a way...and pray.

It's so hard being away from my husband this time....I feel so alone. It's like I don't know how to function. My world really isn't complete without him in it. I want to be strong for him,for us. But I'am struggling everday to maintain. It just hurts so much...................being alone.

It's Sunday morning...about 7:30 and it is raining. I love the rain. To me it is just so relaxing. So how was everyones 4th? Mine was just another day. I had to work and then I came home. My mother called to tell me she have made some ribs and things but I was so tired that I just stayed at home. Yeah, I know that I have a boring life. But it works for me. I think that today I will clean house and then go and visit my family. I have to work 5 days next week so I will be even more tired!!!!!!… Continue

I have cleaned all day!!!! I'am so tired,but it was worth it. I got rid of alot of useless things. The house looks sooo much better now. All I have left to do is the bathroom and straighten up the bedroom. Oh and clothes...I hate washing clothes.But they are starting to pile up and I don't want that. I went to my mom's today and power washed my rug. I stayed and talked with her and my dad for a few hours. It was nice. I have to work in the morning so I'am going to end this blog.......love… Continue

ALRIGHT...I WAS LATE FOR WORK AGAIN TODAY!!! I WAS SO TIRED LAST NIGHT AND I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO GET UP. I ALMOST CALLED IN. SO I DIDN'T GET THERE UNTIL ALMOST 7:30. BUT I'AM HOME NOW AND THATS ALL THAT COUNTS..LOL. I DID HAVE TO GO AND GET SOMETHING TO COOK TONIGHT. NOT MUCH GOING ON THIS WEEKEND. I THINK I'AM GOING TO HANG OUT AT HOME AND CLEAN HOUSE.TALK TO YA LATER.

I had a good day today. I went out to eat with a friend and her son,then we went and seen Transformers 2. It was very good. It was nice to get out of the house and do something. It is so hot right now!!!!! Iam trying to get use to life without my husband,atleast for the next couple years. I will survive.But it is still very,very hard.