I would like to truly believe my life will no longer be ruled by my depression. However right now it seems it will always run my life... 

i try so hard to keep going to place a smile on my face i dont have to fake around my family. Most of my days are spent were im on my own. Usally im doing something for someone else on the days i  need to be left alone.

Other days i spend being called names by my siblings. i seem to be getting the arguments come at me from all sides. I say i…