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Esme Needs Closure
Carlisle: *Follows Esme & closes the bedroom door behind us chuckling* The boy is a prankster *shakes my head grinning*
Esme: *Nods* He is, but no harm done..I suppose. *Trails off as I catch my reflection in the mirror, a frown appearing instantly*
Carlisle: *flops on the bed staring at the ceiling smiling* Come, sit on the bed *leans up catching you frowning at your reflection, stands & walks over to you placing my hands on your waist* Now why is your reflection frowning at such a beautiful woman?
Esme: *Sighs* Because she is not happy. *Glances to my reflection again before turning away* But you already know that.
Carlisle: *speaks softly to be discrete* I do *nods letting you go as you pull away* What can I do, Essie. I can't help unless you let me
Esme: *Sits on the edge of the bed, my head in my hands* I've been keeping it in for so long, but I can't keep doing this. I need you, Carlisle. *Looks back up to with pain in my eyes* I need you.
Carlisle: *kneels in front of you, taking your hands in mine* I'm here, sweetheart *looks up into your sorrowful eyes* I'm right here
Esme: *Hesitates for a moment, losing myself in your tender stare* I don't want to hurt you. If I tell you, you might be disappointed in me.. in us. *Shuts my eyes to avoid your gaze* I can't bare the thought of my selfishness hurting you.
Carlisle: Anything you need or want, you know it's yours. I'd go to any length to get you whatever it is that will make you happy.
Esme: Promise me, you will not hate me for having these thoughts. *Slides off the bed & drops to my knees beside you* I feel awful for having them in the first place as I'm so lucky to be your wife, and the past is behind me. *Sighs*
Carlisle: What is it, sweetheart? *Pleads with you if only for a hint* Our pasts are often troubling. We cannot choose what memories will haunt us and which will not. I never have questioned our love and I promise, no matter what I never will.
Esme: *Rushing through my words as I blurt out the cause of my sadness* I want go home. I want to know what happened to Charles.
Carlisle: *inhales sharply hearing the word 'home' * Sweetheart, anything you wish *kisses your hand & walks to the window, moves the curtains & gazes into the trees* Alone?
Esme: *Leans against the bed, feeling somewhat defeated, your reaction not going unnoticed by my eyes* Carlisle.. I didn't mean home in the sense of now. I meant my human home. *Sighs* Home is always wherever you are. I've gone and hurt you already, and I've not even gotten to the reason why I need this. *Pulls my knees up under my chin* I'm sorry.
Carlisle: *closes the curtains, exhales & walks to the bed to sit beside you* It's no matter why. It's the fact that you do need it and I will do whatever it is to help you get through this *strokes your cheek with my thumb* You are my priority, always.
Esme: *Pulls away slightly, feeling incredible guilt over asking this of you, knowing it hurts* It does matter why. I just can't stop thinking about him hurting another person when I could have done something about it. Do you remember the last time I asked, and how we both knew I could not return? *Looks down to the floor* Then he vanished.
Carlisle: I do *nods* yes. That was a long time ago. It's not uncommon to feel as you do *searches your eyes* You just need closure.
Esme: *Groans as I see the truth in your eyes & Stands up, pacing* I'm asking too much, Aren't I? I should leave it be.
Carlisle: *stays on the bed & watches you pace* Nothing is asking too much when it comes to you. We can leave as soon as you wish.
Esme: *Stops pacing & leans against the closet door,whispering* I don't know if this is the right thing to do though. I'm so lost.
Carlisle: We can leave now *places my hand on your shoulder hoping to comfort you*
Esme: *Speaks sharply* No. *Sighs and lowers my voice* No, Carlisle. I don't think that I'm ready.. or maybe I am..I don't know.
Carlisle: *sits on the edge of the bed* It has to be what you want, sweetheart. Just say the word and we can go. It's not a crime to need closure, sweetheart.
Esme: But it is a crime to think of another man when I am so lucky to have you. *Kneels before you* Please forgive me. I beg you.
Carlisle: *gathers you into my arms* There is nothing to forgive. Come, let's pack some things and let the kids know we're going away.
Esme: *Shakes my head* I can't leave tonight. I have a telephone conference with an antique broker in France in a few hours. All my papers are here in the office. *Rests my head on your shoulder* Carlisle..I feel terrible for even mentioning this.
Carlisle: It won't go away, Essie. *sighs heavily* You can bury it in antique brokers and conference calls *squeezes your hand* It will follow you until you face whatever it is you need to face.. *looks in your eyes hoping you hear what I'm saying*
Esme: I will get to it.... if you come with me. *Looks up, instantly regretting ever mentioning a word of this* No. No. Forget this... forget I even said a word, Carlisle. *Walks over to the window, withdrawing from you once again*
Carlisle: *closes my eyes tightly as you withdraw from my me, the sting as painful as is my inability to soothe your worries*
Esme: I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry. *Winces as I notice your pain again* I never meant for this to upset you. You are nothing like him, Carlisle.. He was an awful man and you are the most sincere man I know. *Takes a deep breath* He is NOTHING to me. It's only what he was capable of that torments me. It's been building for a great deal of time.
Carlisle: It hasn't gone un-noticed, I know it pains you. I've see you with your old journals. It will haunt you until you find closure.
Esme: *Picks my journal up from the dresser, running my fingers across the brittle pages* It's been a while since you've read this.. hasn't it. *Places the journal in your hands* I should never have picked it back up. Closure is not easy.
Carlisle: *looks down at the worn cover noting the delicate spine knowing you've pined over it for decades* Closure may not be easy.. *looks up to meet your gaze* But it is what you need if you are to be able to let go *holds the journal out to you to take*
Esme: *Steps away, shaking my head* I can't look at it again. Not now. *Averts my eyes, feeling ashamed and guilty* I don't want you to look at me differently all because I need to know what happened to him. He was a monster, Carlisle.
Carlisle: You are the center of my existence. Nothing you need will ever be looked upon by me negatively. Your needs are my priority.
Esme: *Feeling a twinge in my chest as you speak, knowing how deeply you love me yet unable to rid myself of the guilt* I hurt you. I know I have. *Sighs and moves to the door* And I have never, or will never doubt your love. Please know that.
Carlisle: There has never been even one moment of doubt when it comes to us *smiles weakly* Don't suppress it, it will only fester more.
Esme: I can't do this. *Pulls my hair up into a bun* This is wrong..hurting you with my memories is wrong. I..need to hunt.
Carlisle: *stands up to follow you instantly stopping in my tracks as my eyes catch yours*
Esme: *Blinks away the burn starting to settle in my eyes brought on by the awful thoughts of hurting you in any fashion* Alone.
Carlisle: *nods completely understanding your need to be alone at this time* I'll be in my study *brushes past you pausing to kiss your temple, inhaling deeply before walking silently down the hall & closing my study door*
Esme: *Reaches out towards your study door, a terrible pain nagging away at me, needing you more than I let on - Whispers your name before taking off down the stairs and out into the forest, fearing I've upset you with my confession*
Carlisle: *sits in my study, head in my hands mulling over Esme's words wishing there was something I could do to ease her troubled mind, listening to Chopin’s Piano Sonata No. 2, 3 rd movement Funeral March* http://blip.fm/~1661b8
Esme: *Hears the music coming from Carlisle's study as I race out in search of a nearby herd, knowing he is hurting from this song alone*
Esme: *Nods* He is, but no harm done..I suppose. *Trails off as I catch my reflection in the mirror, a frown appearing instantly*
Carlisle: *flops on the bed staring at the ceiling smiling* Come, sit on the bed *leans up catching you frowning at your reflection, stands & walks over to you placing my hands on your waist* Now why is your reflection frowning at such a beautiful woman?
Esme: *Sighs* Because she is not happy. *Glances to my reflection again before turning away* But you already know that.
Carlisle: *speaks softly to be discrete* I do *nods letting you go as you pull away* What can I do, Essie. I can't help unless you let me
Esme: *Sits on the edge of the bed, my head in my hands* I've been keeping it in for so long, but I can't keep doing this. I need you, Carlisle. *Looks back up to with pain in my eyes* I need you.
Carlisle: *kneels in front of you, taking your hands in mine* I'm here, sweetheart *looks up into your sorrowful eyes* I'm right here
Esme: *Hesitates for a moment, losing myself in your tender stare* I don't want to hurt you. If I tell you, you might be disappointed in me.. in us. *Shuts my eyes to avoid your gaze* I can't bare the thought of my selfishness hurting you.
Carlisle: Anything you need or want, you know it's yours. I'd go to any length to get you whatever it is that will make you happy.
Esme: Promise me, you will not hate me for having these thoughts. *Slides off the bed & drops to my knees beside you* I feel awful for having them in the first place as I'm so lucky to be your wife, and the past is behind me. *Sighs*
Carlisle: What is it, sweetheart? *Pleads with you if only for a hint* Our pasts are often troubling. We cannot choose what memories will haunt us and which will not. I never have questioned our love and I promise, no matter what I never will.
Esme: *Rushing through my words as I blurt out the cause of my sadness* I want go home. I want to know what happened to Charles.
Carlisle: *inhales sharply hearing the word 'home' * Sweetheart, anything you wish *kisses your hand & walks to the window, moves the curtains & gazes into the trees* Alone?
Esme: *Leans against the bed, feeling somewhat defeated, your reaction not going unnoticed by my eyes* Carlisle.. I didn't mean home in the sense of now. I meant my human home. *Sighs* Home is always wherever you are. I've gone and hurt you already, and I've not even gotten to the reason why I need this. *Pulls my knees up under my chin* I'm sorry.
Carlisle: *closes the curtains, exhales & walks to the bed to sit beside you* It's no matter why. It's the fact that you do need it and I will do whatever it is to help you get through this *strokes your cheek with my thumb* You are my priority, always.
Esme: *Pulls away slightly, feeling incredible guilt over asking this of you, knowing it hurts* It does matter why. I just can't stop thinking about him hurting another person when I could have done something about it. Do you remember the last time I asked, and how we both knew I could not return? *Looks down to the floor* Then he vanished.
Carlisle: I do *nods* yes. That was a long time ago. It's not uncommon to feel as you do *searches your eyes* You just need closure.
Esme: *Groans as I see the truth in your eyes & Stands up, pacing* I'm asking too much, Aren't I? I should leave it be.
Carlisle: *stays on the bed & watches you pace* Nothing is asking too much when it comes to you. We can leave as soon as you wish.
Esme: *Stops pacing & leans against the closet door,whispering* I don't know if this is the right thing to do though. I'm so lost.
Carlisle: We can leave now *places my hand on your shoulder hoping to comfort you*
Esme: *Speaks sharply* No. *Sighs and lowers my voice* No, Carlisle. I don't think that I'm ready.. or maybe I am..I don't know.
Carlisle: *sits on the edge of the bed* It has to be what you want, sweetheart. Just say the word and we can go. It's not a crime to need closure, sweetheart.
Esme: But it is a crime to think of another man when I am so lucky to have you. *Kneels before you* Please forgive me. I beg you.
Carlisle: *gathers you into my arms* There is nothing to forgive. Come, let's pack some things and let the kids know we're going away.
Esme: *Shakes my head* I can't leave tonight. I have a telephone conference with an antique broker in France in a few hours. All my papers are here in the office. *Rests my head on your shoulder* Carlisle..I feel terrible for even mentioning this.
Carlisle: It won't go away, Essie. *sighs heavily* You can bury it in antique brokers and conference calls *squeezes your hand* It will follow you until you face whatever it is you need to face.. *looks in your eyes hoping you hear what I'm saying*
Esme: I will get to it.... if you come with me. *Looks up, instantly regretting ever mentioning a word of this* No. No. Forget this... forget I even said a word, Carlisle. *Walks over to the window, withdrawing from you once again*
Carlisle: *closes my eyes tightly as you withdraw from my me, the sting as painful as is my inability to soothe your worries*
Esme: I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry. *Winces as I notice your pain again* I never meant for this to upset you. You are nothing like him, Carlisle.. He was an awful man and you are the most sincere man I know. *Takes a deep breath* He is NOTHING to me. It's only what he was capable of that torments me. It's been building for a great deal of time.
Carlisle: It hasn't gone un-noticed, I know it pains you. I've see you with your old journals. It will haunt you until you find closure.
Esme: *Picks my journal up from the dresser, running my fingers across the brittle pages* It's been a while since you've read this.. hasn't it. *Places the journal in your hands* I should never have picked it back up. Closure is not easy.
Carlisle: *looks down at the worn cover noting the delicate spine knowing you've pined over it for decades* Closure may not be easy.. *looks up to meet your gaze* But it is what you need if you are to be able to let go *holds the journal out to you to take*
Esme: *Steps away, shaking my head* I can't look at it again. Not now. *Averts my eyes, feeling ashamed and guilty* I don't want you to look at me differently all because I need to know what happened to him. He was a monster, Carlisle.
Carlisle: You are the center of my existence. Nothing you need will ever be looked upon by me negatively. Your needs are my priority.
Esme: *Feeling a twinge in my chest as you speak, knowing how deeply you love me yet unable to rid myself of the guilt* I hurt you. I know I have. *Sighs and moves to the door* And I have never, or will never doubt your love. Please know that.
Carlisle: There has never been even one moment of doubt when it comes to us *smiles weakly* Don't suppress it, it will only fester more.
Esme: I can't do this. *Pulls my hair up into a bun* This is wrong..hurting you with my memories is wrong. I..need to hunt.
Carlisle: *stands up to follow you instantly stopping in my tracks as my eyes catch yours*
Esme: *Blinks away the burn starting to settle in my eyes brought on by the awful thoughts of hurting you in any fashion* Alone.
Carlisle: *nods completely understanding your need to be alone at this time* I'll be in my study *brushes past you pausing to kiss your temple, inhaling deeply before walking silently down the hall & closing my study door*
Esme: *Reaches out towards your study door, a terrible pain nagging away at me, needing you more than I let on - Whispers your name before taking off down the stairs and out into the forest, fearing I've upset you with my confession*
Carlisle: *sits in my study, head in my hands mulling over Esme's words wishing there was something I could do to ease her troubled mind, listening to Chopin’s Piano Sonata No. 2, 3 rd movement Funeral March* http://blip.fm/~1661b8
Esme: *Hears the music coming from Carlisle's study as I race out in search of a nearby herd, knowing he is hurting from this song alone*
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