As of recently, I was plagued by a bout of "wishful thinking," as many people call it.  I had been wandering the castle grounds by myself.  Alec was preoccupied with whatever it was he was doing in his chambers.  All I know is when I came by and knocked, all I heard was whooshing noises.  He must have been playing.  I didn't want to disturb anyone else in the castle to ask if they'd like to accompany me as I patrolled the castle. 

Everything was very quiet.  The tourists, also…

My human memories seem to be disappearing the longer I am what I am.  Most of the memories that still remain are those of my brother, Alec, and myself.  Most other things that occurred in my human life are a blur.  I blame most of it because I don't often think about anything else besides the betrayal of my mother and father against Alec and I.  Therefore, the only memories…