sometimes i feel like a FREAK.

like... i get so paranoid. and i'm not so sure as to why.

i think it might be simply because i have lost so many friends... i cant help but to be paranoid. to be paranoid that when i have a friend so good, it'll end.

in retrospect... i do what this saying says i shouldnt:

"if you spend ur whole life waiting for the storm, you'll never enjoy the sunshine."

i guess i always wait for the storm. i always…

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Sometimes I wanna dissapear. Not like, die, just dissapear. Fade into the background. Become the wallpaper... And not feel anything.

Not feel alone

Not feel hurt

Not feel anything.

But be... Here. Be... Alive.



I'm so incredibly sick of being alone. I look around and see all my friends with someone.

Oh ur still young lindsey

They say

You still have time. You don't need to find a soulmate now.

Who said I wanted a soulmate now? I said I wanted… Continue