Something Personal

[Lizzie]

I went to my local doctors today to discuss why my periods are so irregular and why I suffer from hair loss occasionally. I was told that these could be symptoms of Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. It's not been confirmed until I have a scan but the more I think about it, the more I feel I have it. I'm not overly aware of this issue but I have heard about it and I do know that people who suffer from it have a hard time becoming pregnant.

I've never really thought about having children before but now that it could possibly be harder for me, I kind of feel sad. If I am unable to bear children in the future, I know I will feel like a failure. I do not know if I have the syndrome and even if I do, I still may be able to bear children but still it makes me feel pretty low. I guess I feel like I will want what I can't have possibly. Who knows?

I just hope the scan has positive results for me. I am worried I admit but I'm just praying for good results.