I have contemplated this topic for quite some time now and have finally rested on the one that I feel is my biggest hang-up.
Fear of Losing Familial Bonds
Simply put, life is relational. It is impossible to exist without relationships and close ones involve people we see and talk to almost every day. We work with and depend on these people. These close connections help us to learn, grow and move forward. Every of us move through many different relationships during the course of our lives and each relationship will help us grow but none will be as important as the bond we share with our family.
The strongest influence on any person’s life, for good or bad, comes from family. It is the first, it is the longest and it is, therefore, the most influential relationship anyone will have.
Strong family ties and values can make all of the difference in our lives and our future. By spending time together we learn that they can trust that their parents and siblings will be there to support them and help them achieve.
The feeling one has for a family member grows with positive interaction. There will always be rivalry and that is fine as long as mutual understanding and love and respect is the foundation of each relationship. Communication amongst family members is the best way to bond with each other. Where there is love, there is a bond and this very bond is what each of us needs in our daily journey.
What that said, this is a letter to my family.
Dearest Family,
We often allow our minds to become clouded if anger, frustration or disappointment set in. It's not always easy to clear that fog. Some of us just push it to the side until it builds so incredibly that it can no longer be pushed aside for it consumes us completely.
Has that happened to everyone? I'd venture to say that it's happened to almost all of us, yes.
Has it happened to me? It has almost happened to me. Thankfully there was still a window of clarity and I saw it before allowing it to completely overtake my judgement.
I sit here sometimes thinking about my family and how their strength and love helps me each day to make decisions and to do my best to lead them forward.
Sometimes that is halted abruptly. It saddens me when I grow impatient or speak sharply. I strive to stand next to all of them, to lend my strengths, my experiences and my knowledge to theirs with the hope that togetherness will be all that we need to survive. We lead an unique existence. We simply cannot afford to be at odds. I fear that anger, resentment or jealousy lurks around each corner waiting to prey on us yet I know that we are all stronger than any of those things.
Togetherness is not what it used to be. Back in the 'old days' we all would spend much time together, sparring, taking hunting trips as a family, bonding over games and conversation and simply just making time for each other each day. Without family bonds, we are led to a loss of familiarity and ultimately loss of trust.
I feel partially responsible. I want us to move forward as a family unit. We are strongest when we are united. I feel as if I have lost some of that of late but I have recognised it and embraced my shortcomings and am striving to become a stronger, better person. I am here, willing and able to reconnect with each of you with hopes to strengthen our familial bonds once again. We simply cannot allow distance to grow too great between us.
I love you all deeply and unconditionally,
~Carlisle
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