Crystal Dawn's Posts - Cullens Online2024-03-28T11:59:18ZCrystal Dawnhttps://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/CrystalDawnhttps://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/3144272213?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1https://thecullensonline.ning.com/profiles/blog/feed?user=2alouc2us3dhr&xn_auth=noAll bettertag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-05-31:3404507:BlogPost:9079822012-05-31T19:09:52.000ZCrystal Dawnhttps://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/CrystalDawn
My life before was terrible. I have been reading though my old blog post and reading the replies. I realized i has very depressed. Well I'm making my come back to the cullens online. I wanted to say that yes i was gone for a very long time but I'm back now and I'm better than ever. Yes I still have my bad moments but doesn't everyone? I also wanted to thank everyone here on TCO that commented on my old blog posts that really helped me get though my hard times. So thank you all of you. Crystal…
My life before was terrible. I have been reading though my old blog post and reading the replies. I realized i has very depressed. Well I'm making my come back to the cullens online. I wanted to say that yes i was gone for a very long time but I'm back now and I'm better than ever. Yes I still have my bad moments but doesn't everyone? I also wanted to thank everyone here on TCO that commented on my old blog posts that really helped me get though my hard times. So thank you all of you. Crystal Dawn is All Better(:To my baby sister Caryn Phillipstag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-08-05:3404507:BlogPost:7155242011-08-05T05:40:52.000ZCrystal Dawnhttps://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/CrystalDawn
<p>When she screams it makes you wanna curl up and cry.</p>
<p>When she hugs you, you never wanna letter her go. </p>
<p>When she whipsers in your ear you get chills down your back.</p>
<p>When she is sad you would do anything to make her happy.</p>
<p>When she crys you wanna know what happened and if she is okay.</p>
<p>She will scream, cry, laugh, hug, whisper, and be sad but she is only a toddler she will learn to grow sooner or later but right now she just wants to be her and play and laugh…</p>
<p>When she screams it makes you wanna curl up and cry.</p>
<p>When she hugs you, you never wanna letter her go. </p>
<p>When she whipsers in your ear you get chills down your back.</p>
<p>When she is sad you would do anything to make her happy.</p>
<p>When she crys you wanna know what happened and if she is okay.</p>
<p>She will scream, cry, laugh, hug, whisper, and be sad but she is only a toddler she will learn to grow sooner or later but right now she just wants to be her and play and laugh as much as possible.</p>
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<p>To Caryn,</p>
<p>From your sissy xoxo</p>Scarstag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-08-05:3404507:BlogPost:7158002011-08-05T05:31:06.000ZCrystal Dawnhttps://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/CrystalDawn
<p>The bruises you left will never go away.</p>
<p>The scars on my arms will never leave and the new ones heal parchly.</p>
<p>My heart can no longer heal from what you did to it.</p>
<p>My life is no longer worth living with out you in it.</p>
<p>When you left you didn't just take your self you took my soul so many years ago.</p>
<p>My father. My Mother. My life. Its gone.</p>
<p>The bruises you left will never go away.</p>
<p>The scars on my arms will never leave and the new ones heal parchly.</p>
<p>My heart can no longer heal from what you did to it.</p>
<p>My life is no longer worth living with out you in it.</p>
<p>When you left you didn't just take your self you took my soul so many years ago.</p>
<p>My father. My Mother. My life. Its gone.</p>A little Girl....tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-08-05:3404507:BlogPost:7155212011-08-05T05:00:00.000ZCrystal Dawnhttps://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/CrystalDawn
<p>A little girl scream as a window breaks,</p>
<p>as she screams, tears run down her face as her father leaves her once again, </p>
<p>her mother yells at her while she is screaming and crying telling her to shut up and grow up and to get over herself even though she is only a child,</p>
<p>the little girl is scared her daddy will not come back soon she relizes she was right he is not coming home he is gone for good...</p>
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<p>The little girl stays up all night crying watching her…</p>
<p>A little girl scream as a window breaks,</p>
<p>as she screams, tears run down her face as her father leaves her once again, </p>
<p>her mother yells at her while she is screaming and crying telling her to shut up and grow up and to get over herself even though she is only a child,</p>
<p>the little girl is scared her daddy will not come back soon she relizes she was right he is not coming home he is gone for good...</p>
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<p>The little girl stays up all night crying watching her mommy drink away the pain,</p>
<p>she think to her self (i did this my daddy is gone because of me), </p>
<p>this little girl never forgives herself and she still doesn't,</p>
<p>the little girl is not little no more she is about to be a young woman..... she has lived a okay life so far with or without a father figure in her life...</p>
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<p>her mother still treats her badly most the time and she crys herself to sleep every night and when she cant fall asleep its because she is to scared to fall asleep...</p>
<p>she hides her fear all day till someone finally breaks her and she crys yet again...her friend don't know wht she goes though they say they do only to make her feel better...</p>
<p>she always think they do not know the pain i have been though they never will they will never under stand...</p>
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<p>for many years and still to this day she still feels worthless.. then someone comes along and treats her right he says he loves her next thing you know he is all over her best friend and breaking her heart and living her like her father did so many years ago...</p>
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<p>to this day this girl still feels the same and feels as if she doesn't belong anywhere....</p>My Past... :ltag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-07-23:3404507:BlogPost:6982152011-07-23T04:54:16.000ZCrystal Dawnhttps://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/CrystalDawn
<p>Most people say there past is the easiest to forget when really its not. See I grew up with no father and not muc of my mother but she is with me now. See I didn't know tell 1 month ago from the time I was born till I was 6 my father didn't think I was his daughter he thought it was a mistake and well it was hard to find this out right after I had been in his marriage as his new wifes maid of honor.</p>
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<p>Now I don't know how to talk to him he keeps telling me he loves me but how…</p>
<p>Most people say there past is the easiest to forget when really its not. See I grew up with no father and not muc of my mother but she is with me now. See I didn't know tell 1 month ago from the time I was born till I was 6 my father didn't think I was his daughter he thought it was a mistake and well it was hard to find this out right after I had been in his marriage as his new wifes maid of honor.</p>
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<p>Now I don't know how to talk to him he keeps telling me he loves me but how do I know he is not lying. Now with what ihave been though not just with him but with my mom and everyone hating me where i go to school just because i'm "different" I don't know who to believe for anything. My mother has hurt me in the past to in who how many ways possible. I don't think getting yelled at 24/7 is love i think its hate, but what do I know i'm only 14 going into Honors classes in High School and Collage prep classes, So I know nothing, right? </p>
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<p>I just really don't understand my past and why my dad wouldn't want me I was great growing up and I still am but I just don't know why he didn't love me. I always needed a dad in my life and to say the truth everyday I got off my bus in front of my house i would step down, close my eyes and wish the biggest wish that he would be inside waiting on me and I was always disappointed*closes eyes and feels week at memory*. And well my grandparents are not big helpers at all with my past even though I need them. And I mean I don't even know what i'm doing I feel like no one loves me even though my family says they do, but who am I to believe when they always lied?</p>
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<p>Please comment if you have anything to say or any questions... Thank you for reading this.. :/</p>