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"My World Falls Apart - Monday 24th January"
Eleazar: *leads you out of the castle into the gardens, motioning to benches, stops to motioning you all to sit. Anxious at what will be siad or not..*
Katie: *walks alongs side Garrett, gripping his hand as we walk. Sitting down as Garrett stands behind me, both hands on my shoulders*
Carmen: *takes a seat on the bench looking down at my hands still gripping Tanya's*
Eleazar: *looks from one face to another a range of emotions staring back at me, a smile unsure smile broches my lips*
Tanya: *Stays standing next to carmen, squeezing her hand glaring at Eleazar*
Eleazar: *looking at you all knowing my change of appearence is unsettling*
Katie: *looks from Carmen to Eleazar, unable to speak*
Eleazar: *waits patiently for you all to find your voices*
Eleazar: *looks to Carmen, the pain filling her eyes casuing my shame to spread through me once more*
Carmen: *glances up at my husband, the pain from the last three days of fear & worry crashing down on me* I don't *my voice catches & fails me*
Tanya: *Growls in a whisper* Why Ele...why would you do this? To us?...to Carmen!! *stops for a moment to calm myself*
Eleazar: I never meant to hurt any of you *looks at my family seeing the abundant pain my actions have caused* I couldnt *pauses* control myself
Carmen: *shakes my head sadly all the pieces finally falling into place, whispers* There wasn't any accident on site was there?
Katie: *growls* you not being able to control yourself, is not an excuse to come live here! We're your family Eleazar, you could have come to us, we could have helped you!
Eleazar: that *hisses my tone dripping with disdain * human riled me, I hadnt fed I lost control *looks down sighing before meeting your eyes* No darling no accident
Carmen: I'm sorry, about that, you should have let me know what was happening *sighs & shakes my head* Did you think I wouldn't forgive you for this?
Tanya: And that is an excuse why? *shakes my head* You know better Eleazar *sarcasim lacing my tone* You could have said something...Being a vegetarian is a constant battle! You of all people should know that! *hisses under my breath*
Eleazar: *stares at Katie* Do you have any idea how much of a hypocrite I felt *my tone changing into distress and anger* I am the am one telling Garrett to be strong & resist it can be done! Then I lose control *shakes my head* I didnt know what to think
Katie: *standing up, as Garrett grips my arm* You still could have come to us *motioning to Carmen* look at her! do you see the pain that you've put her through the last few days! what you've put us all through!!
Eleazar: *anger rises at Katies remark, in part the truth hurting* You can not understand how it feels to lose that cotrol until it happens to you ! * looks to Garrett , his sympathic look giving me a little comfort but not much* I realise I was wrong, but at the time I didnt think, my instincts took over I did what I thought was best, leave you all! You didnt need to share my shame, disgust! So i came to the one place I knew I would be safe or unjudged *sighs in distress*
Tanya: Shame..disgust? *spits the words at you* Family! That is what we are. *grits my teeth and looks at Katie with sad eyes at whats to come* Do you think Sasha..or Katie gave a second thought to when I had a lapse in judgement? When I took a life after our "New diet"..NO! thats what family is for Eleazar! *waves my hand around* And this thing that they dont Judge you? *shakes my head again* Doid you not see their eyes, their snickers? They have you where they want you!
Katie: *bites my lip at the mention of Sasha*
Eleazar: *growls through my bared teeth* They dont have me anywhere Tanya! I have always tried to help our family lead by example you have no idea how it feels when you cant even follow your own advice not only have I let myself down but my family also! *turns & starts to pace in agitation* I couldnt bare to see the disappointment in all of your eyes! * increases my agitated paced* Maybe I do not give you all enough recognition that you all deserve. *stops to look at you * I'm sorry
Carmen: *stands up realeasing Tanya's hand, giving her shoulder a squeeze* Eleazar *closes the distance between us, laying my hand gently on your face* I'm not judging you, not now or ever *pauses, whispering* Please come home!
Eleazar: *sighs moves my hand on top of yours moving it to my lips the squeezing it tightly* Muchos gracias mi amor, *a saddness fills me as I know how much I am about to hurt you once more* I cant, *shakes my head* I cant go back to Denali.
Katie: *growls* How can you do this Eleazar! *turns and storms off as Garrett follows me trying to console me*
Eleazar: *stares after Katie & Garrett knowing nothing I can say at the moment will help*
Tanya: *sighs with sad eyes, knowing my words make no difference* Have it your way Eleazar..we are going home *turns and walks off after Katie turning once to look at Carmen*
Eleazar: *looks from Tanya to Carmen, saddness welling up within but I know that I can not return to Denali*
Carmen: *gasps softly whispering* No? *feels the sting of tears that will not fall as a dry sob builds inside me* Mi amor, please *stretches up resting my forehead against yours whispering* Please don't do this, please don't do this to "us".
Eleazar: *closes my eyes as our skin touches* I can not Carmen just as you could not return here *clenches my teeth to stop any emotion flowing, moving you hand to rest over my heart* I love you I alway have *smiles at the many memories* I love and always will. *not ready to break our bond I pull you in closer inhaling your scent, memorizing every last detail of your face & the way your hair sits as if i may never see it again. Pulls away slightly* I love you Carmen.
Carmen: *wraps my arms tightly around your neck as your words sink in with a finality that breaks my heart* Siempre Mi Amore *a sob breaks free & I reluctantly step back, resting my forhead against your chest as I squeeze your hands one last time, forcing myself to look into your eyes one final time whispering* I wish it was enough Eleazar.
Eleazar: *gazing into your eyes one last time as I nod my words not reaching my throat as it dries in anguish*
Carmen: *reluctantly steps back still holding your hand, my fingers go to your wedding band, twisting it around you finger before lifting your fingers to my lips kissing them gently before releasing you, my voice catching as I back away* I cannot say goodbye to you, Please do not say the words....I couldn't bear it. *turns & heads for the car*
Eleazar: *stands watching after you my hands still outreached from your embrace. A dull ache slowly seeps through me as I whisper* "I love you"
Eleazar: *sits down on the bench not ready to leave the gardens or forget your delicate scent*
Katie: *walks alongs side Garrett, gripping his hand as we walk. Sitting down as Garrett stands behind me, both hands on my shoulders*
Carmen: *takes a seat on the bench looking down at my hands still gripping Tanya's*
Eleazar: *looks from one face to another a range of emotions staring back at me, a smile unsure smile broches my lips*
Tanya: *Stays standing next to carmen, squeezing her hand glaring at Eleazar*
Eleazar: *looking at you all knowing my change of appearence is unsettling*
Katie: *looks from Carmen to Eleazar, unable to speak*
Eleazar: *waits patiently for you all to find your voices*
Eleazar: *looks to Carmen, the pain filling her eyes casuing my shame to spread through me once more*
Carmen: *glances up at my husband, the pain from the last three days of fear & worry crashing down on me* I don't *my voice catches & fails me*
Tanya: *Growls in a whisper* Why Ele...why would you do this? To us?...to Carmen!! *stops for a moment to calm myself*
Eleazar: I never meant to hurt any of you *looks at my family seeing the abundant pain my actions have caused* I couldnt *pauses* control myself
Carmen: *shakes my head sadly all the pieces finally falling into place, whispers* There wasn't any accident on site was there?
Katie: *growls* you not being able to control yourself, is not an excuse to come live here! We're your family Eleazar, you could have come to us, we could have helped you!
Eleazar: that *hisses my tone dripping with disdain * human riled me, I hadnt fed I lost control *looks down sighing before meeting your eyes* No darling no accident
Carmen: I'm sorry, about that, you should have let me know what was happening *sighs & shakes my head* Did you think I wouldn't forgive you for this?
Tanya: And that is an excuse why? *shakes my head* You know better Eleazar *sarcasim lacing my tone* You could have said something...Being a vegetarian is a constant battle! You of all people should know that! *hisses under my breath*
Eleazar: *stares at Katie* Do you have any idea how much of a hypocrite I felt *my tone changing into distress and anger* I am the am one telling Garrett to be strong & resist it can be done! Then I lose control *shakes my head* I didnt know what to think
Katie: *standing up, as Garrett grips my arm* You still could have come to us *motioning to Carmen* look at her! do you see the pain that you've put her through the last few days! what you've put us all through!!
Eleazar: *anger rises at Katies remark, in part the truth hurting* You can not understand how it feels to lose that cotrol until it happens to you ! * looks to Garrett , his sympathic look giving me a little comfort but not much* I realise I was wrong, but at the time I didnt think, my instincts took over I did what I thought was best, leave you all! You didnt need to share my shame, disgust! So i came to the one place I knew I would be safe or unjudged *sighs in distress*
Tanya: Shame..disgust? *spits the words at you* Family! That is what we are. *grits my teeth and looks at Katie with sad eyes at whats to come* Do you think Sasha..or Katie gave a second thought to when I had a lapse in judgement? When I took a life after our "New diet"..NO! thats what family is for Eleazar! *waves my hand around* And this thing that they dont Judge you? *shakes my head again* Doid you not see their eyes, their snickers? They have you where they want you!
Katie: *bites my lip at the mention of Sasha*
Eleazar: *growls through my bared teeth* They dont have me anywhere Tanya! I have always tried to help our family lead by example you have no idea how it feels when you cant even follow your own advice not only have I let myself down but my family also! *turns & starts to pace in agitation* I couldnt bare to see the disappointment in all of your eyes! * increases my agitated paced* Maybe I do not give you all enough recognition that you all deserve. *stops to look at you * I'm sorry
Carmen: *stands up realeasing Tanya's hand, giving her shoulder a squeeze* Eleazar *closes the distance between us, laying my hand gently on your face* I'm not judging you, not now or ever *pauses, whispering* Please come home!
Eleazar: *sighs moves my hand on top of yours moving it to my lips the squeezing it tightly* Muchos gracias mi amor, *a saddness fills me as I know how much I am about to hurt you once more* I cant, *shakes my head* I cant go back to Denali.
Katie: *growls* How can you do this Eleazar! *turns and storms off as Garrett follows me trying to console me*
Eleazar: *stares after Katie & Garrett knowing nothing I can say at the moment will help*
Tanya: *sighs with sad eyes, knowing my words make no difference* Have it your way Eleazar..we are going home *turns and walks off after Katie turning once to look at Carmen*
Eleazar: *looks from Tanya to Carmen, saddness welling up within but I know that I can not return to Denali*
Carmen: *gasps softly whispering* No? *feels the sting of tears that will not fall as a dry sob builds inside me* Mi amor, please *stretches up resting my forehead against yours whispering* Please don't do this, please don't do this to "us".
Eleazar: *closes my eyes as our skin touches* I can not Carmen just as you could not return here *clenches my teeth to stop any emotion flowing, moving you hand to rest over my heart* I love you I alway have *smiles at the many memories* I love and always will. *not ready to break our bond I pull you in closer inhaling your scent, memorizing every last detail of your face & the way your hair sits as if i may never see it again. Pulls away slightly* I love you Carmen.
Carmen: *wraps my arms tightly around your neck as your words sink in with a finality that breaks my heart* Siempre Mi Amore *a sob breaks free & I reluctantly step back, resting my forhead against your chest as I squeeze your hands one last time, forcing myself to look into your eyes one final time whispering* I wish it was enough Eleazar.
Eleazar: *gazing into your eyes one last time as I nod my words not reaching my throat as it dries in anguish*
Carmen: *reluctantly steps back still holding your hand, my fingers go to your wedding band, twisting it around you finger before lifting your fingers to my lips kissing them gently before releasing you, my voice catching as I back away* I cannot say goodbye to you, Please do not say the words....I couldn't bear it. *turns & heads for the car*
Eleazar: *stands watching after you my hands still outreached from your embrace. A dull ache slowly seeps through me as I whisper* "I love you"
Eleazar: *sits down on the bench not ready to leave the gardens or forget your delicate scent*
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