truly

[julia fitzpatrick]

I would like to truly believe my life will no longer be ruled by my depression. However right now it seems it will always run my life... 

i try so hard to keep going to place a smile on my face i dont have to fake around my family. Most of my days are spent were im on my own. Usally im doing something for someone else on the days i  need to be left alone.

Other days i spend being called names by my siblings. i seem to be getting the arguments come at me from all sides. I say i dont want to go out and its starts a horrable argument with my sister. I truly love them but they have inflickted so much pain on me and called me rotten things that they need to let my mind heal to change my view of me to my self it will take time for me to be me my usual sunny, smiley self is gone and im working on it to brng myself back on my self.

I do truly love all of you my brother's James, Charles, Harry and my sister Chloe. Just give me time.