When Mortal Hearts Break

[Angelia]

I'm new to Cullen's Online.  I needed something besides homework to keep my mind busy.  Three weeks ago I lost my beloved mother to a horrific disease that wasted her body for over 5 years.  To watch a once strong woman disolve from the person she once was to a mere skeleton with skin was an experience I would not wish on Satan himself.  To make matters worst, only a year and 4 months prior we lost my brother to Melanoma skin Cancer at the age of 30. He left behind his beautiful wife and 2 (then) year old son.  So needless to say, life in my household has not been easy the last 5 years at least and it went downhill and crashed from there in the last 2 years. My family of 4 has now become a family of 2.  My father and I will live here and try to make it in this world together.  Considering my teaching career kind of sucks do to the job shortages, I'm stuck subbing and working retail to get through graduate school and hopefully a professorship in some community college. 

 

The bottom line is--I'm pretty much a lost soul.  I'm overwhelmed, I'm frightened, and I don't know what is next.  I feel like I need an escape because reality has made a sharp right turn into WTFville.  If you have any suggestions or guidance, I'm open. 

[Angelia]

Thank you.  I appreciate the support from You and  Mrs. Cullen.  Life is so uncertain right now.  I'm not sure what to do from one day to the next.  I'm more than a bit overwhelmed trying to pay last minute bills, and then the household stuff.  Trying to figure out things like what did get paid and what didn't, what to do with her stuff, and then trying to figure out how to make it through this life without her.  I'm feel like I'm in the middle of the room and surrounded by tons of stuff and to get out I have to climb over everything.  I'm really confused and scared. 

[Carlisle Cullen MD]

Angelia,

I think coming here and blogging about your issues is a healthy and also a good place to get some moral support. We are a close-knit family who cares deeply for our friends. Please feel free to contact me at any time. I am here for you

~C