I've felt distanced from my family lately. Work has been over whelming. I am mentally and emotionally exhausted. I have tried, these last few days, to leave work related stress at work but I simply am not able to.
Esme is starting to notice and I don't want to burden her with my intense feelings of grief.
I am losing a patient, a human life, and I can do nothing.
Sometimes it helps when I write. Sadly, not this time. As I sit here and write this, moments slip away. I remember being human and the fear I felt right before I lost my human life.
I grieve, silently for this young man of 16 years; so much like my Edward. This is too close to home. Too close.
-Carlisle Cullen MD