When I first arrived in Volterra and started to get to know everyone, I noticed everyone was very cheerful in their own way, everyone had a personality that would stand out, everyone except Master Marcus, that despite of being one of the Masters he was not as cheerful and not noticeable as everyone else, I noticed that every moment he was not in the throne room with Master Aro and Master Caius attending meetings with them he was mostly alone in his chambers hiding from all and everyone at…

Question:

"What is it like putting down the syringe,

and sitting at your patient's bedside, concluding that there is nothing

else to do? How do you feel when you have to quit, although you want to

continue on?"

Answer:

Defeated.

After all is said and done and there is no more that I can do, defeat hits me and I have to accept what is.

I always think, "What if". I suppose a lot of that is quite humanistic, is it not? I…

I sat in my chambers, turning on my stereo to enjoy some music. I collect rare records as a hobby of mine. However, I do enjoy a few modern artists.  One artist I enjoy listening to is Tori Amos.  Her piano playing and voice is so full of feeling.  Her music is very melodic.  I was pleased when the gentle keys were pressed, causing the beautiful song playing on the stereo: "Winter" by Tori Amos.

"Snow can wait, I forgot my…

Have you ever been so guilty that everyday it just eats more at you? But deep down in your heart and soul you know you can't fix it with a "sorry" because its like trying to cover a stab wound with a band-aid. The guilt feeling has followed me for a year or so even writing this blog wont change a thing but I hope the person I want to see this does. Yes I know that it wont change a thing but even now I'm more sorry then I…

The other day while driving home from the store, the radio was on and this song came on  "Never grow up", as I was listening to it, I turned to look at Shay fast asleep in her car seat holding her doll,she looked so peaceful and so little and suddenly the song started to make sense to me, I did wish she would never grow up, that no one would hurt her and that all things remain  as they were now.…

Hello all! I have written a fairytale for young children! It is called Princess Cricket : the Unknown Princess . It is based on the ABC series Once Upon a Time! I do hope you enjoy and please give me reviews!

 I was once a young…

The same night Master Aro rescued me from my creator  we left for Volterra, to be honest I was scared because I did not know what to expect, even if during the whole trip down to Italy I was explained what I was going to do, what my role in the guard would be, I was still worried because I knew my life was spared because of my gift ,one I did not know how to control or use properly.

When we arrived, I immediately fell in love with my new home , it was gorgeous under the moonlight and…

These past weeks have been quite stressful. It’s the first time I ever have to juggle between friends needing support, work at the store, being here for a brother in need and patrols in the woods. Having a friend losing someone they care about deeply isn’t easy. I always promised Caroline and Mark I’d be there if they needed me for anything and that’s what I did. When they called me to tell me their grand father passed away, I knew that Caroline would need both me and Mark around. She was…

Running, running as fast as I can to get back to the countryside to be back with my mother and sisters. Afraid that the ghost of my father will follow me, afraid that I would be caught… the words from Astaroth repeating in my ears… Power to stand against any man… even an army… stay out of the sun… don’t attract too much attention… the screams of the people I murdered and the limp body of my father on the floor in that room.

Reaching the country house, I search for my mother…

Sitting at Amun's desk going over their accounts and paying bills as instructed by Amun before they left. Wishing every moment I was in their home they would come walking in and be home.

I hear a door open and close just thinking that it was the housekeeper I continue my work. Trying hard not to give in to the…

Vlad is selling wine like mad. We live a vey comfortable existence of late. I know it will be short lived but as of right now we're enjoying it and as the saying goes, "we're living high off the hog"

It's easy to get lazy with this sort of life style but trust me, we are doing nothing of the sort. We are well aware that the Volturi know of our whereabouts and we're laying as low as possible as to stay under the radar. Vlad and I have discussed rebuilding our coven but at this time we…

Just like the past 3 years, this mothers day was perfect, Sam spoils me the whole weekend, not that it's only time when he does but he says it's more special than any other occasion because he also celebrates our wonderful family, and he is right my family is wonderful and perfect.

This weekend started Saturday morning when he did not allow me to get up and make them breakfast he said he would do it, I got up with him though but he did not allow me to help not even with Shay, he took…

Sam,

Laying here in this hospital bed has only made me realize, I have fallen in love with you that I cannot be without you, right now it feels like if a part of me is missing and it is because you are not here with me. I know you blame yourself for what happen, Jared told me, but please know that it was not your fault, it was an accident, and one I don’t hold you…

As I walked along a dusty path

I saw a fleck of blue

And tucked beneath a Douglas Fir

These flowers grew for you



I only picked a handful

I left more than I took

A perfect little blue bouquet

To decorate a nook



I rushed right home to tie a bow

Of perfect green and blue

To fall into your loving arms

And hand them straight to you

Eternally Yours, Carlisle Cullen, MD 2012/5.12…

During the past few months, I have been wondering a little more about my past and what had happen to my father after my change, so I decided to talk to Master Aro and ask his permition, the first one after all this centuries, to go back to Reims, and to be honest I was surprised when he said yes under the condition to come back as soon as possible or if needed, and of course I agreed.

After a few days of planning and thinking of what I really wanted to find, I left Volterra in the…

I have many favourite poems but this is my favourite above all others. I thought I would share it with you all. 

Home

Jacob Black is the keeper of my heart, the man of my dreams. He has always been there from the very first moments I entered this world. The first moment he looked at me, his eyes captivated my heart.

When I am near him, I feel like I hover around the earth. My feet unable to stay on the ground and yet he is the one that grounds me, my anchor.

When I am without him even just for a short while, my world is a shade of blue, everything tinted by the sadness I feel from missing…

I must admit at times it’s really hard to be as different as I am, I can’t even start to imagine how it must be for Mum and Dad, I mean I have only been with them for 5 years. But even though in actual years I might be 5, that’s where my similarity to a young child ends.  I can’t even say my appearance helps to make it easier because physically I look 16 and so I guess it’s understandable that I get treated more like a child than the mature young woman I know I am. Although when you start…

Does young love ever last?

Or will it fade as time goes on?

He makes me smile, he makes me giggle, he makes my heart flutter and my stomach turn and have butterflies. I can't help but squeal with love. My song is full of passion and happiness.

The 6th of May, 2012 will be a day I will always remember; the first day I actually met Josh.…