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Featured Blog Posts – May 2010 Archive (14)

Being A Wolf . . .

What is it like being a wolf?

It’s something I clearly do…

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Added by Leah Clearwater on May 28, 2010 at 5:13am — No Comments

I had been away from La Push for a while now, when I decided to search for a college that could take me in a few classes. By then, I had found people who were looking for a roommate so they let me live with them. Mark and Caroline were nice. They didn’t ask me too much questions about me, and never would push too much when I didn’t want to answer one of their questions.

I wanted to try to explore some new areas, so after talking with Mark and Caroline about different classes, I…

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Added by Embry Call on May 27, 2010 at 8:30pm — No Comments

Who am I? Part 3

Still under the shock of the news, she asked me to sit with her so she could tell me about him. She told me about his kindness towards her, and how every moment spent with us seemed to have him worried. He only got to hold me twice. The first time being in the woods after my birth, and the other, that dreadful night just before he left. She also explained to me his concern about how the tribal council would react if they found out who was my father, knowing all the men at that time were… Continue

Added by Embry Call on May 27, 2010 at 5:38pm — No Comments

A forgotten memory - SWEETDREAMS

Every night after tucking my children into bed, I would kiss and hug them, whispering, "sweet dreams", it had always been my ritual but one night one of my children was most definately not having sweet dreams, Leah and Seth had been fast asleep for hours, Harry and I had not long fallen asleep when I sat bolt upright in bed, awoken by screams from Seths room.

Flinging back the covers I jumped out of bed and raced down the hall to Seths room, who was sitting up in bed, with… Continue

Added by Sue Clearwater on May 27, 2010 at 2:09am — 2 Comments

Remembering the COLOMBINE HIGH SCHOOL MASSACRE‏

Reflecting over my life and jotting everything down in my journal, that comes to mind, painful or not I looked at the date on my page and thought long and hard before I realised why it was important, instantly my hand flew instantly to my chest the painful memories of that day all flooding back to me, but no I promised myself, so after taking a deep breath I wrote it all down, whethe I share this with anyone remains to be seen, but here it is according to todays date and my… Continue

Added by Sue Clearwater on May 27, 2010 at 2:01am — No Comments

Reliving the past.

Nestled away amongst the large Fir trees I find the cabin is small, welcoming but cosy. I can't even begin to put into words how incredibly grateful I am for this solitude.

Watching as the fire crackles and the flames climb higher I curl up in this old but comfy chair, my blanket wrapped firmly around me and my cup of tea firmly between my hands my emotions have finally caught up with me and my tears stream unchecked down my face. All I can think about is my family,… Continue

Added by Sue Clearwater on May 27, 2010 at 1:37am — No Comments

A family divided.......

After a much needed hunt I headed north and came upon Jasper sitting alone in a small clearing. I attempted to speak with him about yesterday's incident. After our confrontation, Esme found us and words were spoken........

Carlisle - Jasper, you do realize the severity of the consequences we would have had to face if our family was exposed yesterday?

Jasper - *My hands tightening beside me into fists, ignoring the surroundings of us as my anger at this man… Continue

Added by Carlisle Cullen MD on May 26, 2010 at 1:50pm — 1 Comment

With angry words spoken....

Today was supposed to be a day of surprise and delight as I was planning to take Esme to Port Angeles to see a Matinee at the theatre. Jasper brought her to my work to save time and so that we had only one car to deal with. When he arrived, a trauma was brought in and the amount of time too great between now and his last hunt had finally taken it's toll...

Jasper - *Smelling the scent as the trauma patient is brought past me, covered in blood. My sight going blank, the burn in… Continue

Added by Carlisle Cullen MD on May 25, 2010 at 1:00pm — 9 Comments

Who am I? Part 2

I had been running for a few hours now, still nothing could take away the frustration I was feeling. No matter how much I howled, dug dirt vigrorously with my paws or ran, nothing could get me to let enough anger out of me to phase back to my human self. Even if I did, I just couldn’t face the thought of what happened in my mind. I also happenned to have no other clothes to put on either. For now I was the only one of my pack phased, so it wasn’t too bad. No one could hear the thoughts… Continue

Added by Embry Call on May 19, 2010 at 5:38pm — No Comments

In order to leave, you have to say Goodbye

The 16th of March loomed ahead, it would signify 4 years, 4 long years without Harry, as I lay there in my bed I looked across at the empty space beside me and for the first time in a long time, I grabbed Harry's pillow and hugged in to my chest, "What is wrong with me", I thought as the tears streamed down my face, my heart contracting in pain.

I've been through al this haven't I, said my goodbyes, grieved, shaking my head I miserably climbed out of bed and after checking both Leah… Continue

Added by Sue Clearwater on May 18, 2010 at 12:30am — 3 Comments

Who am I? Part 1

I know who I am now, but it wasn’t always this way. For 20 years, I have felt like a part of me was missing. I don’t know much about my mother’s past and up to recently, I didn’t know anything about my father.

Some part of me always hated the fact that mom never answered my questions by changing the subject. We had our fair share of heated arguments because of this. The only way I could feel like a part of this was there, is when I was with my best friends Quil and Jake. We could do… Continue

Added by Embry Call on May 17, 2010 at 6:00pm — No Comments

Dear Mother

In the past few months away, I spent lots of time thinking of the circumstances of my departure. The fights with you over not telling me anything about dad and that day I found the picture in the basement. I still feel bad about what happened , but have forgiven myself since.…

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Added by Embry Call on May 15, 2010 at 4:17pm — No Comments

I belong to you

A jounal entry....

My darling Eleazar,

Each of us walks a path in life, sometimes we know where we're going, other times we just stumble along lifes journey and hope it all works out. I had been lost for such a long time, I lost everyone I had ever loved or cared for, I had lost all hope and truly longed for it all to end. But then as though by magic you were there, you swept into my life like a warm summers breeze and just like that you changed my world.

The first… Continue

Added by Carmen Denali on May 10, 2010 at 5:53am — 1 Comment

The Mother of my Children ( Mother's Day poem I wrote for Esme)

(copyright 9 May 2010)

The Mother of my Children

The gift that you are

The love that you give

The words that you speak

The life that you live

The lives that you touch

The ones you hold dear

Not just once or twice

But each day all year

The core of our lives

The one who binds true

This family of ours

With all that you do

It may go unsaid

The love that we feel

I want you to know

It's… Continue

Added by Carlisle Cullen MD on May 9, 2010 at 6:13pm — 5 Comments