Renesmee Black-Cullen's Posts - Cullens Online2024-03-19T07:29:54ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullenhttp://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/3144233637?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1http://thecullensonline.ning.com/profiles/blog/feed?user=3w1cvqcea7y5g&xn_auth=noOne year and looking ahead to many more.tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2015-10-21:3404507:BlogPost:10908152015-10-21T10:34:17.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>Can it really be a year, one year since I stood in front of my family and friends and promised till death do us part to the love of my life Jacob Black.</p>
<p>Yes it’s really been a year of being Mrs Black and I would love to say it was just a year of awesomeness, but let’s be honest here. It’s marriage and yes it can be hard.</p>
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<p>I mean you have two people learning to share one space like all the time and even though since the first time I entered the world we have been…</p>
<p>Can it really be a year, one year since I stood in front of my family and friends and promised till death do us part to the love of my life Jacob Black.</p>
<p>Yes it’s really been a year of being Mrs Black and I would love to say it was just a year of awesomeness, but let’s be honest here. It’s marriage and yes it can be hard.</p>
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<p>I mean you have two people learning to share one space like all the time and even though since the first time I entered the world we have been together it was still an adjustment. But honestly I will not trade it for anything.</p>
<p>They say that the first year is the hardest and I think we aced it. So you probably would love to know how we celebrated it. Of course it was the most romantic week of my life so far and believe me I have had a few.</p>
<p>It all started with one of the Embry coming to fetch me at the hospital the evening before our anniversary with instructions that he has to take me to Jake immediately, at first my heart sank into my shoes as I thought something must have happened but looking at the smirk on embry’s face quickly made me realise that Jake was okay and I am in for some or other surprise.</p>
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<p>To be honest I did not even think it’s related to our anniversary as we both have been so busy at the hospital and Jake at his garage that we have not really talked about making any plans.</p>
<p>The next thing I know we are stopping on this big open field and there is this helicopter waiting for me. I recognised the signs on the helicopter as one of Jakes clients and smiled as I expected to see Jake waiting for me inside but no it was just me and the pilot and a letter telling me of how much he loves me and what the past year has meant to him. My anniversary surprise could have ended here and I would have been happy but little did I know.</p>
<p>Next stop was the airport in Seattle and there I was greeted by my amazing husband with two plane tickets for the Maldives. I was very excited as I have always wanted to go there. We boarded the plane and had an amazing time on the flight watching movies and talking and just spending time with one another without having to rush off to work or patrol.</p>
<p>When we arrived at the airport someone from the Hotel waited for us and took us straight to the Hotel. When we got to the Hotel and booked in we were taken to a boat who took us to our hotel room. It was on stilts in the water and just how I imagined it would look.</p>
<p>It was the most amazing week away, we swam and scuba dive. We had romantic meals on the beach just the two of us. But what made it the best time ever was just being able to have time for just the two of us.</p>
<p>We could talk and laugh and just focus on us and nothing else. We might even have had a conversation or two about what is next for us. Who knows maybe we can expand the family circle but more about this later. </p>
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<p>As I am sitting at my desk in my room, I look around. I have the wedding planner open on my lap and slowly sipping the tea Jake made me before he had to go out on patrol.</p>
<p>Two more Days then I will be Mrs Renesmee Black, I can't wait and every time I think about it my heart want's to explode from excitement.</p>
<p>Everything is set, from the corner of my eye I can see the dress bag with my wedding dress in my cupboard. I softly laugh to myself as I think of the hard time I had to…</p>
<p>As I am sitting at my desk in my room, I look around. I have the wedding planner open on my lap and slowly sipping the tea Jake made me before he had to go out on patrol.</p>
<p>Two more Days then I will be Mrs Renesmee Black, I can't wait and every time I think about it my heart want's to explode from excitement.</p>
<p>Everything is set, from the corner of my eye I can see the dress bag with my wedding dress in my cupboard. I softly laugh to myself as I think of the hard time I had to explain to Jake that he can not come in my room for the next couple of days. I know this is going to make it difficult for him. Since moving to the room that Jake and Billy build for me, Jake has spend every night after his patrol on my bedroom floor, still in wolf form.</p>
<p>When I asked him about it, he said it helps him to be close to me and I guess he is just comfortable in his wolf form.</p>
<p>I look at the clock and stretch out, I feel exhausted as today was really busy, Mom and I went to around to finalize some of the wedding stuff and I got a few new outfits for the Honeymoon, although I have no clue where Jake is taking me.</p>
<p>My tummy is constantly full of butterflies when I think of Saturday and the days after that.</p>
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<p>Looking around my room, I start to wonder how we will fit all of Jake's stuff in here. We have decided to stay in my room as it is kind of separate from the Billy's main house, until we can find our own little nest.</p>
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<p>My eyes feeling very heavy as I look at the tea and notice that Jake gave me some of Tiffany's special tea's to help one relax.</p>
<p>Placing my wedding planner on the desk and my tea cup, I turn out the desk lamp and make my way to bed, knowing I will miss having Jake in here, but so happy as it is only 2 more days then it will be me and Jake forever, never to be apart again.</p>Am I ready for all this Future talk?tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2013-06-25:3404507:BlogPost:10217632013-06-25T11:05:35.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>Lying on my bed at the cottage, I run down the fight again and just find myself getting more frustrated and upset. I hate fighting with Jake and usually we fight about silly stuff, like me going somewhere and not telling him or if I go on a hunt alone. Things were we both get upset and then see the silliness and end up laughing about it.</p>
<p>But tonight’s fight was so different, it was seriously a grown up fight and to me a window into fights as a married couple one day. A fight that…</p>
<p>Lying on my bed at the cottage, I run down the fight again and just find myself getting more frustrated and upset. I hate fighting with Jake and usually we fight about silly stuff, like me going somewhere and not telling him or if I go on a hunt alone. Things were we both get upset and then see the silliness and end up laughing about it.</p>
<p>But tonight’s fight was so different, it was seriously a grown up fight and to me a window into fights as a married couple one day. A fight that for a moment I wondered if this whole thing is really worth all the fuss, but then my heart tells me to not over react and to be sure that Jake and me we are destiny.</p>
<p>I suppose the imprinting can be both a curse and a blessing. I mean how many girls can say 100% sure that they are going to marry their one sole mate. The one person that was truly made just for you and no one else. Well I can say that, Jake imprinted on me it means that by the wise spirits of old I am his chosen one and he is mine.</p>
<p>Look all girls have moments of insecurity even me, I know silly right. But when Jake and I started to move to more than just best friends, I use to wonder what if there was no imprinting. No bond that pulls him so close to me that if we are apart we both feel physical pain. Will he still want me, will I still make him so happy.</p>
<p>But imprint or not, I know for sure Jake loves me and of course the imprinting sometimes makes that a whole other issue. You can take this fight we had as a great example. I know I over reacted and so did he and I know when we sit down and talk about it calmly we will both come to the same conclusion.</p>
<p>Jake’s imprinting makes him want to protect and look after me in a very serious way. This past year or 2 since our relationship have become more romantic, he has had to learn to allow me to do some things and to be in danger so I can learn how to take care of myself and also for him to learn that as much as he wants he can’t be around me 24/7. This has been very hard on him at times and I suppose the money and providing for me once where married and have our family is another one of those feelings that so strong. But like the protecting he also has to let me be a partner in our relationship and in how we contribute to the household. I know this one is going to be a bit harder and of course being a Cullen ad a bit of extra tension to it. </p>
<p>So in the morning I will go look for him and talk to him. I know he is probably also thinking about this now and probably have volunteered to be out on patrol. For Jake running around alone helps to clear his head and who knows maybe he can talk to Sam about it. I am sure Sam and Emily had the same fights when they started their lives together.</p>
<p>You have to admire how hard he works and carefully plan things to make sure that his garage is not only too expensive but also not too far from me.</p>
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<p>I know Jake loves me and only wants the best for us. Looking at this whole incident I am more than ever sure that I am so ready for the future talk and the future itself.</p>I am all grown up nowtag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2013-03-31:3404507:BlogPost:10143752013-03-31T18:54:58.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>We all knew it would be soon, the signs were there and my pains and cramps were increasing more rapidly. I suppose it was wishful thinking on my side, hoping that somehow I could just postpone it all. So when Mom got an assignment to go do a shoot in the Amazon’s I was very eager in reassuring her that it was more than okay to go and do the shoot. I still remember our chat about it, we were sitting at a coffee shop in Seattle and I smiled at her. “Mom, seriously I have no concern, I really…</p>
<p>We all knew it would be soon, the signs were there and my pains and cramps were increasing more rapidly. I suppose it was wishful thinking on my side, hoping that somehow I could just postpone it all. So when Mom got an assignment to go do a shoot in the Amazon’s I was very eager in reassuring her that it was more than okay to go and do the shoot. I still remember our chat about it, we were sitting at a coffee shop in Seattle and I smiled at her. “Mom, seriously I have no concern, I really don’t think my growth spurt is going to be anytime soon. Nahuel has sent me his journal and so far we are very close in what our experience are so far.</p>
<p>I could see Mom was still not fully assured but she was trying to be less over protective and give me some space to make decisions. In my heart I was hoping that I was right. I have read the journal Naheul sent me and his account of what happened was not something I wanted to endure without my mom near my side.</p>
<p>Dad checked in on a daily basis but I tried to stay positive as I knew that he was busy with his final exams and I did not want him to rush over here until it was really necessary. </p>
<p>Then one morning I got up and could feel that my body was a lot more sensitive and my legs felt stiff and tired. I thought that a run would be a good idea to loosen my muscles, not realising that this will be the day my growth spurt will start. </p>
<p>As luck will have it I collapsed and was extremely thankful that Sam was patrolling nearby. He heard my screams and found me, my body in severe pain. With some effort he got me unto his back and then he carried me back home. Jacob came home and notified Carlisle to come over as soon as possible.</p>
<p>The following days were at the best of times a blur of pain. Carlisle tried to get hold of Huilen and Nahuel and in the meantime ease the pains with conventional medicine. Jake did not leave my side for a minute and was there all the time. Dad came around when his schedule allowed it and Mom tried her best to make it home. Within a few days Nahuel was in Forks with some very gross herbal mixture, but as it goes in life the worst tasting medicine are usually the ones that work the best.</p>
<p>Over the next few days the pain subsided and I felt more normal and yet I could feel a difference in me, not only in my looks but I felt stronger and older. This was it my last growth spurt no more pain and in a few months when I turn 7 that will be it, I would be frozen in time. Although this does not leave me with a lot of time for certain things, I choose not to be too focused on it right now, all I am thankful for is that I survived this growth spurt and that I am still here and that once again my family were there for me and more than that Jake was there and I know that he is my future and my tomorrow. Finally we are at the place where we can plan our future were our lives can start not just friends or imprints but as a couple.</p>
<p>I am so excited to see what happens in the days that follows.</p>Growing up is hard to dotag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2013-03-01:3404507:BlogPost:10029152013-03-01T06:08:11.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>Turning my iPod and playing some soft classical music, I pull the journal closer that Carlisle gave me to keep track of the signs that my final growth spurt is just around the corner.</p>
<p>25<sup>th</sup> February 2013</p>
<p>This week was a bad one, my cramps and pains are definitely getting worse. I am so relieved that Jake had night patrols this week. Reason being that he will probably want to guard me 24/7 and not allow me to do anything.</p>
<p>It seems that the worse cramps and pains…</p>
<p>Turning my iPod and playing some soft classical music, I pull the journal closer that Carlisle gave me to keep track of the signs that my final growth spurt is just around the corner.</p>
<p>25<sup>th</sup> February 2013</p>
<p>This week was a bad one, my cramps and pains are definitely getting worse. I am so relieved that Jake had night patrols this week. Reason being that he will probably want to guard me 24/7 and not allow me to do anything.</p>
<p>It seems that the worse cramps and pains are late at night just after I have fallen asleep. I get woken up with this immense pain in all my limbs and so I have to admit I am really tired this week.</p>
<p>I don’t want to freak anybody out so I have tried to be brave and have not completely been honest in how severely painful it’s been. But I think I will have to call Grandpa tomorrow and tell him that it’s getting worse. To be honest I am very scared. Nahuel and I exchange emails on a regular basis or as regularly as his travels allows. He has warned me that this last growth spurt will hurt the most. I have really been trying to cover up my changing body from my friends and think I am very lucky to have Aunt Alice to help me make me look a bit older so when I have this final growth spurt then hopefully nobody will notice the difference in my appearance.</p>
<p>Although this growth spurt really has me worried and scared, I am also excited because this will be it. This is how I will be for the rest of my life.</p>
<p>More than that I am so excited for what it means for my future with Jake. This will mean that we can make more mature plans. Who knows maybe even a wedding in the near future?</p>
<p>I do feel it’s getting closer the final growth spurt and think tomorrow I will have to go and speak to Grandpa and then we will need to tell my Mom and Dad that they might need to come home for a week or so.</p>
<p>I am so thankful that I don’t have to do this alone. My family and Jake is really my solid foundation and I know that with their help, I will get through this.</p>Doing it my waytag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2013-01-31:3404507:BlogPost:9947562013-01-31T06:20:57.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>Lying down on my couch, I look around my room. In the background my Ipod is playing a selection of songs thats Dad’s compositions. Stretching, I give a big happy sigh. This is it me doing it my way. Well in a matter of speaking.</p>
<p>It’s been nearly a month now that I have moved to La Push and is the proud owner of a room that is probably big enough to be a one bedroom apartment minus the bathroom and kitchen. Although I do have a small corner that has a mini bar fridge and a kettle. I…</p>
<p>Lying down on my couch, I look around my room. In the background my Ipod is playing a selection of songs thats Dad’s compositions. Stretching, I give a big happy sigh. This is it me doing it my way. Well in a matter of speaking.</p>
<p>It’s been nearly a month now that I have moved to La Push and is the proud owner of a room that is probably big enough to be a one bedroom apartment minus the bathroom and kitchen. Although I do have a small corner that has a mini bar fridge and a kettle. I mean a girl needs her luxuries.</p>
<p>So in a way I am living on my own. My room is an extension to Jake and Billy’s house and this makes my place even more amazing. Now I get to spend time with Jake daily and I even started to make suppers regularly for Billy and Jake.</p>
<p>I miss my Mom and Dad naturally but I know this was the right move for all of us. Mom and Dad never really had that just the two of us time after they got married and Mom seems to be enjoying Seattle very much. She still comes to visit a lot and I will probably go spend a week there once I get a break from college.</p>
<p>Dad is doing so well with his studies and I think that being around Grandpa has given him that extra edge the other med students don’t have.</p>
<p>I suppose if you have to ask me what my most favourite thing is about having my own space is just that. I have my own space and I must say I am really enjoying this independence.</p>
<p>I also love the fact that I am so close to Jake now. I can already see him being more at ease seeing that we aren’t really that far apart anymore. I also love the way I sometimes wake up in the night to see him sleeping near my bed in his wolf form. He normally does that just before a patrol or after but I love knowing that he is always looking after me.</p>
<p>I have a feeling that this year is going to be so amazing in so many ways. Although I do feel that my final growth spurt is coming closer. But then it will be over and I will be done with all that.</p>
<p>I am really looking forward to reaching the end of my growth and just start living my future and of course that includes the love of my life, Jake.</p>
<p> </p>My inspiration and my Hero.tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-11-30:3404507:BlogPost:9702442012-11-30T06:14:53.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
Sitting in the cafeteria is our usual group, me and Michelle and the boys and Joanne. I love my new group of friends and I suppose for the first time, I feel normal as if I am fitting in to society.<br />
We are making plans for the upcoming campus dance evening and the theme is Heroes and Villains. Of course the boys are fighting about who gets the honour of being Batman or Superman or Spiderman.<br />
I smile as I sit back and watch my friend’s debate about who is going to have what super powers. Hero’s…
Sitting in the cafeteria is our usual group, me and Michelle and the boys and Joanne. I love my new group of friends and I suppose for the first time, I feel normal as if I am fitting in to society.<br />
We are making plans for the upcoming campus dance evening and the theme is Heroes and Villains. Of course the boys are fighting about who gets the honour of being Batman or Superman or Spiderman.<br />
I smile as I sit back and watch my friend’s debate about who is going to have what super powers. Hero’s and Villains, to them it seem so far fetch, right of the pages of a graphic novel. To me it’s a bit more real and the knowledge of this makes me giggle sometimes.<br />
My Family are probably the only Vampire Clan with the most “Super Powers” in one clan. Dad, who for ever knows what you’re thinking and Mom with her shield. Uncle Jasper and Aunt Alice. So to me Heroes and Villains are part of reality.<br />
I know this is going to sound like a cliché but my Hero or my inspiration is my Mom. I look at her grace and compassion and strong will and am amazed daily at how she handles life and our family. Jake has told me about Mom and all her heroic deeds from before she and Dad were married. I myself know just how amazing she was from the moment I was conceived. How she handled my fast growing body inside of her fragile human body. How she put me first every time and was willing to die just to know I will be alive.<br />
I have been witness to her amazing strength and will to adjust from the first moment she awoke as a Vampire. The way she found self-control and will power that has only made her more of Hero in every one’s eyes.<br />
The way my Mom did everything in order to keep me and my family and our friends safe from the Volturi’s onslaught.<br />
She is and will always be my Hero. She has adjusted to Motherhood so easily as in all the changes her life encountered. I hope that if I ever am blessed enough to have a children of my own that I will be able to follow in my Mom’s footsteps. At times I wish I could tell her and let her know just how much I love and admire her. Although I don’t think there are words that would ever be able to capture the way I feel.<br />
So for now all I can say is ….. Mom you are my inspiration and my Hero.The Best Halloween Ever !!tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-10-31:3404507:BlogPost:9613302012-10-31T07:49:00.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
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<p>I love the excitement that October brings to the town. All the shop window in town get decorated and there is an abundance of sweet treats all over. I love sitting at the coffee shop next to the fancy dress hire and listening to all the kids and how excited they get about getting dressed up.</p>
<p>Since being at the satellite campus of Peninsula College a few days a week, I have started to have a bigger friend circle. This has been interesting and I am learning so much of other…</p>
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<p>I love the excitement that October brings to the town. All the shop window in town get decorated and there is an abundance of sweet treats all over. I love sitting at the coffee shop next to the fancy dress hire and listening to all the kids and how excited they get about getting dressed up.</p>
<p>Since being at the satellite campus of Peninsula College a few days a week, I have started to have a bigger friend circle. This has been interesting and I am learning so much of other people and myself.</p>
<p>So while we were all in the cafeteria one afternoon, everyone was talking about Halloween and the Campus Annual Halloween Party. My one friend Mary, she has the same class as I do, was part of the committee that was planning the event and asked me if I would like to help her. To say that I jumped at the chance is an understatement. I was so excited and told her about my families creative talents and how Aunt Alice just love to organise events.</p>
<p>That Afternoon as I got home, I was greeted by a very excited Aunt Alice who had visions of her helping to create the Halloween event of the year. I just had to laugh and we started planning right away with a big promise to mom that I will finish all my assignments due.</p>
<p>Soon we had just about everyone involved, Mary came over to the cottage and met Grandma and Alice and Emmett. Emmett was so excited about all the props he was going to build. I could see that Mary was completely surprised and I had to apologise for the Cullen’s taking over. But what can I say we love a good party.</p>
<p>Soon everything was planned in the finest detail and everyone had a list of what was needed. I had to giggle when Emmett went and started on his props immediately.</p>
<p>The only thing left was deciding on a costume for the party and for this I had to get Jake’s opinion. I phoned Jake’s house and asked Billy to please give Jake a message to come to me when he was done at the garage.</p>
<p>I started on my homework but struggled to keep my focus on my work and soon I was drawing ideas for outfits for me and Jake. As soon as could get a hint of his scent I raced down stairs and jumped in his arms. Jake just laughed at my excitement as he carried me inside and up to my room, while I filled him in on what the excitement was all about.</p>
<p>So after a lot research we decided to go as the characters of one of my all-time favourite Movies, Nightmare before Christmas.</p>
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<p>After we made our decision, I was able to concentrate a little bit better and decided to finish the assignments as I promised mom with Jake lying on my bed reading his Popular Mechanics magazine.</p>
<p>I felt like one of those little kids I always see and hear and understood even better now there excitement about Halloween.</p>
<p>This is going to be by far the best Halloween ever.</p>If only this day could last forevertag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-09-26:3404507:BlogPost:9528992012-09-26T13:24:51.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>Siting on one of the big couches in the lounge, I snuggle in with my cup of hot Chocolate. These quite times in the house are always the best. Mom and Dad are back and home feels home again. I can tell they feel guilty for being away for such a long time and no matter how many times I say its fine, I can see in their eyes the fear that somehow I feel abandoned. As if that can ever happen, with Jake and the rest of the Family around.</p>
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<p>So when they do decide to go to the main…</p>
<p>Siting on one of the big couches in the lounge, I snuggle in with my cup of hot Chocolate. These quite times in the house are always the best. Mom and Dad are back and home feels home again. I can tell they feel guilty for being away for such a long time and no matter how many times I say its fine, I can see in their eyes the fear that somehow I feel abandoned. As if that can ever happen, with Jake and the rest of the Family around.</p>
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<p>So when they do decide to go to the main house or just to get something at the store, I grab the few moments alone time with both hands. Last week I found this amazing book in Grandpa’s study, its filled with all these amazing famous paintings. Sometimes I just enjoy watching the paintings and then daydream of what it must be like to be there in the painting.</p>
<p>The one which drew most of my attention has been the one by Jack Vettriano called Singing Butler. I suppose the reason this one draws me so in is because you can almost sense the moment and the love. Hear the butler singing softly as the gentleman leads the lady across the wet beach sand.</p>
<p>Sipping my hot chocolate, I close my eyes and lean back my head. Suddenly I can hear the soft song being sung by the butler, feel the wet sand between my toes and look in the eyes of the man who is leading me in this dance.</p>
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<p><i>Smiling I look up into Jake’s eyes, noticing the grin on his face as he leads us into another turn. The butler softly continuing the song as he has been singing since Jake asked him to serenate us. I am torn between wanting to just enjoy the moment and trying to take everything in the sound of the waves and the song, the sand beneath my feet. Trying to etch every detail of the moment into my memory. Fearing that once the butler stops his song my moment will be over and this night, this dream come true night will be over.</i></p>
<p><i>I did not start out the evening thinking that I would be any different than our evenings together. Of course I should have had some suspicion when I saw the red dress on my bed. I smiled as I picked up the little note lying on top of the Dress.</i></p>
<p><i>A night to remember forever. Be ready at 7pm Yours truly Jake </i></p>
<p><i>At seven o’clock the doorbell rang when I opened it I saw Jake all dressed up in a tuxedo. I smiled and gasped at how handsome he looked. Behind him was this big limousine. I smiled and took his arm and walked towards the limousine.</i></p>
<p><i>It was an evening I have never even been able to imagine. We went to see a show at the small theatre and then we had dinner at this amazing spot on the beach. We even had our own butler and a lady who helped to serve the food. Just as I thought the evening was finish, Jake stood up and walked over to me holding out his hand.</i></p>
<p><i>I took his hand and allowed him to pull me up and into his arms. His lips meeting mine with a soft kiss, before he looked at the butler and nodded. The next minute the butler started singing one of my favourite songs. I looked up to Jake and smiled as we danced across the beach.</i></p>
<p>Hearing the front door open, I get pulled back to reality and smile as I close the book. Sighing as I wait for Mom and Dad to come inside, hoping Dad did not get a glimpse of my daydream, I place the book on the floor and go to put my mug down.</p>Finding the unexpectedtag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-08-29:3404507:BlogPost:9470562012-08-29T14:09:44.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>I know a lot of people wonder how I can stand to live in such a small town as Forks. I mean you Seattle a few hours away on one side and on the other side you have Portland. To me Forks is just perfect.</p>
<p>Even in La Push I enjoy the closeness of the community and you never know when an adventure or surprise is around the corner.</p>
<p>The great thing about small town is that you have the best Garage Sales. As far as I am concerned you will never find a better place for Garage Sale…</p>
<p>I know a lot of people wonder how I can stand to live in such a small town as Forks. I mean you Seattle a few hours away on one side and on the other side you have Portland. To me Forks is just perfect.</p>
<p>Even in La Push I enjoy the closeness of the community and you never know when an adventure or surprise is around the corner.</p>
<p>The great thing about small town is that you have the best Garage Sales. As far as I am concerned you will never find a better place for Garage Sale treasures as you will in Forks.</p>
<p>What you probably don’t know is that I am a huge fan of Garage Sales. Yes I know, sounds silly and just plain crazy. But I love them, I love browsing at them and I love finding that one item that will change my world. You know that feeling of “I have waited for you all my life” when you see a certain appliance or book or album.</p>
<p>I am not much into appliances as such although I got some really nice stereos and dvd machines that I was able to donate to the children wing at the hospital. The nurses always give me a list of things they are looking for whenever they hear that I will once again be visiting a Garage Sale.</p>
<p>To me I always seem to be able to read a bit of the people’s lives in the things they sell. The paintings or clothes that are now to out dated. The last one I went to was really amazing. The house belonged to an old lady who had sadly passed away. In her will she gave some of her treasures to friends as she never was married and did not have any children. The rest she requested to be sold at a Garage Sale and the money they collected had to be donated to her most favourite charity.</p>
<p>The tables were lined with books and albums and all sort of things. I got a few really great Albums for Grandpa and saw this old table cloth that reminded me so much of Grandma.</p>
<p>I finally landed up at the jewellery table; this I have to admit is my favourite tables at any Garage Sale. I was going through all the rings and watches and earrings, when I found this amazing necklace.</p>
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<p>The necklace made me think of a photo that is in Jake’s house of his Mom when she was very young. I remember asking Jake about the photo and he said it was a photo of his Mom when she was pregnant with the girls; the necklace was a gift that Jake’s Dad gave her on their Honeymoon. I remember the look in Jake’s eyes as he looked at his Mom’s photo, saying that he always feels bad when he sees the picture of the necklace as his Mom lost it on a camping trip when she dried to help him catch some fish.</p>
<p>I quickly grabbed the necklace and went to pay for all my treasures, feeling as if this was indeed the best Garage Sale ever.</p>
<p>I am so excited to give Jake the necklace and maybe the next time he looks at that photo he can smile knowing that in some way the necklace came back to them all.</p>My Dearest Jake,tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-07-15:3404507:BlogPost:9342992012-07-15T15:26:45.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>I find myself speechless around you even though there is so much I want to tell you. So now while I am sitting here, supposing to be doing my research on my next project. But once again all I am thinking about is you.</p>
<p>So I decided to write you a letter, to tell you of just how amazing you make me feel. How much I love you and how much I look forward to our future together.</p>
<p>You are the one person that makes me feel normal and special at the same time. With you I feel like I fit…</p>
<p>I find myself speechless around you even though there is so much I want to tell you. So now while I am sitting here, supposing to be doing my research on my next project. But once again all I am thinking about is you.</p>
<p>So I decided to write you a letter, to tell you of just how amazing you make me feel. How much I love you and how much I look forward to our future together.</p>
<p>You are the one person that makes me feel normal and special at the same time. With you I feel like I fit in perfectly. I feel like I am strong and fearless and yet able to be gentle.</p>
<p>Since my first moments in life you were there, to protect me and be there for me. I have seen our friendship bloom into love and now I find myself so in love with you. Whenever I am around you or even just hear the mention of your name, my heart starts to speed up.</p>
<p>Your kisses make my heart race and at times it feels as if my feet don’t even touch the floor. In your arms I feel loved and desired.</p>
<p>You always seem to understand me and make me feel that what I think and feel are the most important thing there is.</p>
<p>Being away from you is physically painful as if part of me is incomplete and I can’t even begin to think of any day where I am not near you.</p>
<p>I sometimes feel like I can’t breathe until I am once again in your arms. I know that at times my family feel concerned about the intensity I feel for you. I wish they can understand what it is to be your imprint. How it feels to have one person be your gravity and reason for keeping you grounded.</p>
<p>I suppose they will never really understand or know just how much and how deeply I love you.</p>
<p>I just wanted to say that I love you so much, you are the most important person in my life, my reason for living and without you I will be completely lost.</p>
<p>I am thankful that I was given and chosen to be your imprint. I promise that I will spend all my life being all you need.</p>
<p>I sometimes find myself thinking of our future together. I think of being married to you and spending the rest of my life with you.</p>
<p>I know this is becoming a very soppy letter, but this is what I feel all day and every day.</p>
<p> </p>
<p>You are my life and dreams and I just wanted to say:</p>
<p>Jacob Black I love you with all my heart, soul and mind</p>"You ever dance with the devil in the pale moonlight?"tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-06-15:3404507:BlogPost:9134242012-06-15T07:05:35.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>To be part of a family like mine means that you get to live in a world that would ordinarily not be known to a normal person. My family though they appear to be very normal are Vampires and with that comes certain dangers and secrets, that most of the world population is not aware of.</p>
<p>As with every nation or country we as vampires have certain regime that keep the laws which have been created to keep our existence a secret in place and ensures that they are followed. They are known as…</p>
<p>To be part of a family like mine means that you get to live in a world that would ordinarily not be known to a normal person. My family though they appear to be very normal are Vampires and with that comes certain dangers and secrets, that most of the world population is not aware of.</p>
<p>As with every nation or country we as vampires have certain regime that keep the laws which have been created to keep our existence a secret in place and ensures that they are followed. They are known as the Volturi.</p>
<p>They are a family or Clan of Vampires that is as old as time and are feared by all Vampires, known for their gifts and strength and influence. Aro is one of the three main family members and being who he is; he is always looking to extend his guard with those extra special Vampires, the ones who abilities are more than just brutal strength and speed.</p>
<p>This places my family on top of their wanted list. Not just because we have learned to adopt the way we have, but more so for the many gifts that is in our family.</p>
<p>Since my birth I have been added to this list not only for the gift I possess but also for what I am, a hybrid. My existence baffles Aro and intrigues him on so many levels. </p>
<p>A few weeks back Aunt Alice saw in her vision that Jane would be in Forks. Not sure of what her agenda was, my aunt decided to meet Jane before she could approach the house. The reason Jane gave for her presence in Forks was twofold, firstly to see how my mom is doing, making sure she has not fallen of the wagon in a matter of speaking and also to report to Aro about my progress.</p>
<p>After Jane left town, Aunt Alice called us all together and told us that though Jane left seemingly satisfied, she did make mention of her return and that next time she wants to see me personally.</p>
<p>At first this terrified me; Jane is not someone you meet lightly as her gift has the potential of inflicting a lot of pain. Although the more I have been thinking of it, the more intrigued I am getting. Maybe it’s my love for history and the fact that the Volturi’s are some of the oldest Vampires, or maybe the fact that they still manage to strike so much fear in all Vampires. But I find myself wanting to meet Jane, to get to speak to her, learning about the Volturi. Knowledge is power and the more you know your “enemy” the better.</p>
<p>Visiting Italy has been in the back of my mind, I know my last experience in Italy with the Volturi was not the fondest of memories…. But what if I go under different circumstances, to meet them and see how they live and do things. For now I am just going to keep this thoughts to myself, I don’t want to stress my family, but I have to be honest with myself as I am curious.</p>The Kisstag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-06-05:3404507:BlogPost:9098162012-06-05T14:50:26.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>Arriving home, a broad smile on my face, I hum as I enter the main house. Placing my keys in the key bowl and putting down my bag, closing my eyes for a moment as I relive the evening. Making sure no one else is around, I give a small squeal and walk to the kitchen, pouring myself some juice.</p>
<p>Heading upstairs to the guest bedroom, that is actually more like my own bedroom in the Main house. I close the door behind me and pull out my diary opening the lock with the little key that is…</p>
<p>Arriving home, a broad smile on my face, I hum as I enter the main house. Placing my keys in the key bowl and putting down my bag, closing my eyes for a moment as I relive the evening. Making sure no one else is around, I give a small squeal and walk to the kitchen, pouring myself some juice.</p>
<p>Heading upstairs to the guest bedroom, that is actually more like my own bedroom in the Main house. I close the door behind me and pull out my diary opening the lock with the little key that is on my bracelet, a gift from Grandma Esme. I put on my Ipod and lean back as I start to write down my evening.</p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>Tonight was without any doubt the best evening in my life. When we went to the Island for a holiday and Jake and I went to the Main Land that evening, I was sure that nothing would ever be able to top that evening. But tonight was ……. Magical, romantic and so amazing.</i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>I have been wanting to treat Jake to a fun event, not so many in and around Forks, so the other day when we drove past the Old Mill Archery Club and he mentioned how he once did it and really enjoyed it, I knew I had my special event.</i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>I got Uncle Emmett to help me book out the place for the two of us. I was just about bursting with excitement as I went to fetch Jake. He was a bit hesitant as I refused to give out any details.</i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>Once he saw where I have brought him too. He was very happy, and I felt even more excited as we met the manager and then he left us alone. Jake took up the bow as if this is a daily occurrence for him. He aimed and let go, a perfect shot.</i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>Then it was my turn, I was feeling all Katniss like with my bow and tried my best, sadly it shot pass the target, this was part of the reason I wanted us alone. Totally missing in front of Jake I can still take.</i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>I saw the grin on his face as he shook his head; he walked over to me and stood behind me. Now here is the weird thing, I am use to Jake being close to me. But when he stood behind me and he breathed into my ear and his hand held my hip, I swear my temperature climbed by a few degrees. I tried again but as hard as I tried to concentrate on the shot, all I could notice was Jake. The result was me missing the target again.</i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>Before he could move away I took his hand showing him that I want him to help me again, showing him so close to me. I did not even really try this time to aim; I just knew it was not going to happen.</i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>The next thing he was looking so deeply into my eyes, I have seen that look a couple of times before but he always pull away and distract himself, so when this time he bent down kissing me, I was totally taken by surprise.</i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>I have been waiting and dreaming of my first real intense kiss with Jake, sure we have kissed before on many occasions but, that loose myself in the moment, that the earth stood still kiss I have been imagining it so many times. </i></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><i>Just as I thought Jake was about to pull away, he again surprised me by intensifying the kiss even more. This was it, my stop the earth moment. I closed my eyes and kissed him back, losing myself so much in that moment.</i></span></p>
<p><i><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;">When he pulled away, it took me a few seconds just to recollect myself. As I looked at him, I smiled because I could see; this was that kind of kiss for him as well.</span></i></p>
<p>Slowly, closing the diary I lay back and close my eyes and smile.</p>Oh how I love that man !tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-05-10:3404507:BlogPost:9003732012-05-10T09:36:15.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>Jacob Black is the keeper of my heart, the man of my dreams. He has always been there from the very first moments I entered this world. The first moment he looked at me, his eyes captivated my heart.</p>
<p>When I am near him, I feel like I hover around the earth. My feet unable to stay on the ground and yet he is the one that grounds me, my anchor.</p>
<p>When I am without him even just for a short while, my world is a shade of blue, everything tinted by the sadness I feel from missing…</p>
<p>Jacob Black is the keeper of my heart, the man of my dreams. He has always been there from the very first moments I entered this world. The first moment he looked at me, his eyes captivated my heart.</p>
<p>When I am near him, I feel like I hover around the earth. My feet unable to stay on the ground and yet he is the one that grounds me, my anchor.</p>
<p>When I am without him even just for a short while, my world is a shade of blue, everything tinted by the sadness I feel from missing him.</p>
<p>I want to stand on the top of the hills and mountains and enunciate how I feel, that I love him and will forever.</p>
<p>He is always there to safe guard me keep me and I entrust my heart to him, knowing that I will never have to worry of it getting broken.</p>
<p>When I think of him I can’t help myself but smile. The first time I really noticed his loving embrace, the first time it was more than just a hug, was the day we went hiking up in the national park. As I we were making our way down the paved road, I glanced over to Jake and for the first time I started noticing that I was not feeling towards him like I always did. Could it be? Was I falling in love with my best friend? Yes was all I could think and while being so deep in thought, I did not notice the loose brick in the pathway and tripped over it, he caught me in his arms. When he looked at me, I knew he could see what I was feeling, but I wanted him to understand and I touched his face and with my hand and showed him, what I was feeling when I looked at him or when he held me like now. For a brief moment I could see a faint blush on his face and I knew he felt it to.</p>
<p>He bent down and kissed me that was our first official kiss, we spend the day just holding hands and stealing a kiss here and there, it was a magical day. We ended the day on First beach where Jake gave me a wooden carved heart on a ribbon, I smiled as I closed my eyes savouring the moment with the ocean as its soundtrack.</p>
<p>That evening when Jake dropped me off at home, I knew that from this day forward nothing will ever be the same and Jake is my forever.</p>
<p>I also knew that ahead of me I had a very big task, I have to tell my Father and Mother, turning the doorknob I could already hear my Dad telling my Mom to go and sit down because I had to tell them something.</p>All bymyselftag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-05-09:3404507:BlogPost:8999562012-05-09T15:02:16.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>I must admit at times it’s really hard to be as different as I am, I can’t even start to imagine how it must be for Mum and Dad, I mean I have only been with them for 5 years. But even though in actual years I might be 5, that’s where my similarity to a young child ends. I can’t even say my appearance helps to make it easier because physically I look 16 and so I guess it’s understandable that I get treated more like a child than the mature young woman I know I am. Although when you start…</p>
<p>I must admit at times it’s really hard to be as different as I am, I can’t even start to imagine how it must be for Mum and Dad, I mean I have only been with them for 5 years. But even though in actual years I might be 5, that’s where my similarity to a young child ends. I can’t even say my appearance helps to make it easier because physically I look 16 and so I guess it’s understandable that I get treated more like a child than the mature young woman I know I am. Although when you start talking and interacting with me that is when my true age come through as mentally I am more mature than my looks or age appears.</p>
<p>I understand why Mom and Dad are so protective about me, I do. I love them dearly for it but I just want to start the world to see me as I know I am. Yes of course I have playfulness about me. That’s just who I am. </p>
<p>So with this in mind I sat Mom and Dad down, I have overheard a conversation they had where they wanted to take some time and go on a holiday. Just the two of them, I think Dad already booked the flights. But Mom was hesitant, not wanting to let me be alone. As if it was meant to be, I got a call from Tanya in Denali, saying that I should really come and visit them soon.</p>
<p>All of a sudden I had the perfect plan, this was fool proof. Not only did I have an opportunity to help Mom go away without the normal worrying but I had a chance to proof myself as an independent young woman. I sat Mom and Dad down, gently explaining that I wanted to be more independent, telling them that I understood why they were scared and worried. Tried to explain that even though in years I might be five, they both know I far more mature than that. I asked that they will give me the opportunity to show them, that indeed I am ready to be more on my own.</p>
<p>So here I am on my way to the airport with Mom and Dad. Dad just rolled his eyes when he saw my four suitcases. I had to laugh as Mom asked if I was moving or just visiting Denali. My only answer was that seeing that Aunt Alice can’t see my future, she wanted me to be fully prepared. Besides a girl needs to have a choice.</p>
<p>I had to swallow hard, when Mom and Dad walked me to the boarding gate, Because right then I just wanted to burst out in tears. But I was determined to show my parents I can handle this.</p>
<p>Mom on the other hand was not so strong and thank goodness I am not fragile because her hug would have definitely crushed some ribs.</p>
<p>Now sitting in the plane, waiting for the take-off, I am giddy with excitement. I am doing this, flying and traveling all on my own.</p>
<p>Now the only person I have to convince of my independence is Jake, but somehow I don’t think that will happen. Giggling at the thought I sit back and close my eyes.</p>
<p>Independence here I come</p>Dear Grandma Renetag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-03-15:3404507:BlogPost:8729762012-03-15T15:48:33.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>It’s been a while since we really had a good chat, so I decided to write you an old fashion letter. I am going to mail it and everything. I have really been thinking a lot about you. I hope to come and visit you soon. We can even maybe take a trip together. Although I have to get Mom and Dad to agree, or maybe you could convince them.</p>
<p>So let’s see what is news here in Forks, well I am helping Jake at his garage and really enjoy spending time together. Don’t worry Grandma; I am not…</p>
<p>It’s been a while since we really had a good chat, so I decided to write you an old fashion letter. I am going to mail it and everything. I have really been thinking a lot about you. I hope to come and visit you soon. We can even maybe take a trip together. Although I have to get Mom and Dad to agree, or maybe you could convince them.</p>
<p>So let’s see what is news here in Forks, well I am helping Jake at his garage and really enjoy spending time together. Don’t worry Grandma; I am not fixing the cars just helping with the papers. Which by the way is total chaos, but I suppose it’s a Jake thing.</p>
<p>I went to Isle Esme with the family, Dad and Mom needed some space and it was amazing. You have to see the place Grandma it’s amazing. Jake was there as well and I think we really got to know each other better. I feel so much closer to him, I can’t stop smiling.</p>
<p>Oh Grandma, I miss you so much. I miss our long chats. We really need a good talk on the phone. Grandpa is doing fine, still the same as always. We have decided to have more suppers together and I might also go help him in his office. I am sure the same chaos is awaiting me in Grandpa’s office as at the garage.</p>
<p>Mom is fine and so is Dad. Mom keeps me very busy with homework. I think that me getting closer to Jake is worrying her some. She is talking about having the “talk” and to be honest I think that might be a bit uncomfortable.</p>
<p>What happened when you had the “talk” with Mom, if you can give me any advice I would be so thankful.</p>
<p>Otherwise Forks is Forks. Nothing much else is happening here. How are you, Grandma? What are you doing these days to keep yourself busy? Mom gave me you’re the quilt you gave her for graduation and I love it so much. I think it is something that I will keep in the family for a very long time.</p>
<p>I hope that maybe you can come and visit us here soon. It will really be a lot of fun. We can even take a trip to Seattle. I would really like it if you got to know Jake a lot better. I really believe he is my future. I know it sounds silly and that you probably think I am too young. But I love him so much, Grandma.</p>
<p>Please give my love to Phil, I hope he is well and tell him you guys need to come and visit. I love you more than words can say.</p>
<p>You’re Granddaughter</p>
<p>Renesmee</p>A Dream come true Valentine's Daytag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2012-02-17:3404507:BlogPost:8647552012-02-17T21:57:35.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>I am a hopeless romantic. Then again I am sure that all girls are. Nothing can compare to the feeling of having your favourite person in the whole wide world, treat you like a Queen. The flower, which somehow finds its way to your pillow. The little box of chocolates hidden away in your school bag with the note that says *I love you, Babes*</p>
<p>These are some of the things I have become accustomed with since Jake and I became more serious. When Grandma said we all going to the Island, I…</p>
<p>I am a hopeless romantic. Then again I am sure that all girls are. Nothing can compare to the feeling of having your favourite person in the whole wide world, treat you like a Queen. The flower, which somehow finds its way to your pillow. The little box of chocolates hidden away in your school bag with the note that says *I love you, Babes*</p>
<p>These are some of the things I have become accustomed with since Jake and I became more serious. When Grandma said we all going to the Island, I was so excited. Mom has told me so much about Isle Esme that I could not wait to see it. Knowing that I was going to spend it with my family was such an amazing thought but when Grams told me, she invited Jake. I almost went crazy with excitement. I will be able to spend some good quality time with my most favourite person in the whole wide world. With all this excitement, time and space kind of just flowed into one.</p>
<p>I completely forgot that it was February and that in no time at all, it would be Valentine’s Day. As the 14<sup>th</sup> drew closer, I got more panicky. I mean we are on an Island. How am I supposed to get him something? I decided to try a new approach. I am sure at one time we all tried it. The “you know Valentine’s Day is so commercial. I mean seriously why you need one day to say I Love You. I want to do it every day. So this year I think we need to boycott Valentine’s Day and just spend it as a normal day. No gifts.”</p>
<p>Jake looked at me in surprise, “Are you sure, Babes?” he asked. “Yes, I am.” I said, hoping he won’t see, behind my reason for saying the things I was saying.</p>
<p>“Okay, cool Babes, if that’s what you want. Then that is what we will do.”</p>
<p>I smiled at myself thinking just how clever I am.</p>
<p>The 14<sup>th</sup> arrived and I swear Mother Nature was in a Valentines mood, because everything seemed more beautiful than before. I felt a bit down, but consoled myself that at least I will still be spending the day with Jake. So that will count for something.</p>
<p>So I got up and shook of the gloomy feeling I felt. Went to the kitchen and saw Grandma, making us some heart shaped pancakes. I smiled and went over to her and kissed her cheek. Naturally my family are born romantics. So the house was filled with roses and Aunt Alice was skipping around in the best mood ever.</p>
<p>Not exactly the best way to start a day when you trying to make yourself wise that you are boycotting the day.</p>
<p>After breakfast I walked to the beach and went to lie down in the hammock and write a poem for Jake. It was the closes I could get to a gift and it was from my heart.</p>
<p>I must have fallen asleep because I was woken up with soft kisses all over my face. I opened my eyes and saw Jake, smiling I got up. We spend the day just having fun. I was starting to think that maybe boycotting Valentine’s Day is not such a bad Idea.</p>
<p>As the sun was setting Jake went into the house. I joined everyone else on the porch and could swear that they all seemed to smile and giggle a bit too much. When Jake returned he smiled and took me by my hand, led me to the bathroom in my room and there was waiting a hot bubble bath with rose petals and candles. I looked at him and smiled. “Babes, what are you doing, I thought were not celebrating Valentine’s Day. He smiled that crooked smile and replied, “Were not Babes, I just want you to relax. With that he closed the door and left me alone. Smiling I sunk into the hot bath and just relaxed.</p>
<p>When I was done, I got up and got dressed in a jean and T-Shirt and went to find Jake, but when I got out side there was the pathway lit by candles and at the end of the pathway was a blanket with the biggest and cutest Wolf Teddy Bear, a picnic basket and of course the most handsome boyfriend.</p>
<p>As I walked up to him, a big grin was spread on his face. “Babes, what is all this?” I asked. He gave his familiar chuckle and smiled at me. “Nothing much, Babes, just showing you how much I love you.” I smiled and ran into his arms and kissed him. “Jacob Black, you are the best boyfriend in the whole world.”</p>
<p>We spent the rest of the evening just talking and laughing.</p>
<p>A Valentine’s of Dreams.</p>Giving thanks for a Mothers love.tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-12-14:3404507:BlogPost:8271322011-12-14T14:19:55.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p>The year is drawing to a close and with it comes cold days and rainy nights. Soon all the windows of houses and shops are filled with bright colors and flickering lights. Harvest time is celebrated and for a while we get to think about all that we are thankful for. The people and things that make us smile and say, I am happy to be alive.</p>
<p>As I was helping the ladies in La Push get ready for the Harvest Festival, I would listen to them and all the things they felt so thankful for. That…</p>
<p>The year is drawing to a close and with it comes cold days and rainy nights. Soon all the windows of houses and shops are filled with bright colors and flickering lights. Harvest time is celebrated and for a while we get to think about all that we are thankful for. The people and things that make us smile and say, I am happy to be alive.</p>
<p>As I was helping the ladies in La Push get ready for the Harvest Festival, I would listen to them and all the things they felt so thankful for. That evening I decided to go for a walk on First Beach. I walked up to one of the rocks and sat down. Opened my backpack and took out my Journal.</p>
<p>I decided to make a list of things that I am Thankful for, but as I started my list I kept thinking of Mom.</p>
<p>Me being here, being able to have and appreciate all the things I have is mainly because of one person, My Mom.</p>
<p>Yes there were a lot of people who helped and who cared for her but it was my Mom who made the decision. She was the one who decided that she was willing and loving me so much, that she would die for me. Not once but twice.</p>
<p>I am thankful for her love for my Dad and for me. I am thankful that I get to spend every day with her. I am thankful that she is my role model, because her strength and inner beauty is far greater than her outer beauty. Her kindness not just towards her family and friends but to the well being of other people is something I inspire to.</p>
<p>My Mom is just like any other mom, making sure I have enough to eat, which gets quite a job with my growth spurts. She oversees the house, make sure I do my studying and believe me it’s not always so easy. But above all that she has a much greater task one that can put our whole family at risk if she ever fails. This is to ignore her thirst for human blood. To be around and surrounded by humans, hearing and breathing in their scent. To fight the urge that comes most natural to her. Yet she does it with so much strength and courage and grace that even I sometimes forget she is not human.</p>
<p>I love my family more than I would ever be able to say or show, I am thankful for each of them and the support and love they have offered me and my Mom.</p>
<p>But most of all I am thankful to my Mom for being the amazing woman she is. I would not be here without her love and dedication to me. Furthermore I would not have been able to share my life and love with Jacob if it was not for her.</p>
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<p>So Mom I just want to say</p>
<p>THANK YOU</p>
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<p>I nestle myself more securely in the russet brown fur, holding on for dear life while glancing behind us. I can see them in the distance. Slowly nearing us the black cloaks giving them the appearance of levitation. Although it would not surprise me, if Aro somehow collected such a rare gift. My eyes are burning not only from the wind as I can feel us trying to gain some speed. But from the tears that keeps falling down my cheek. Everything I knew, the life I have learned to love up to now,…</p>
<p>I nestle myself more securely in the russet brown fur, holding on for dear life while glancing behind us. I can see them in the distance. Slowly nearing us the black cloaks giving them the appearance of levitation. Although it would not surprise me, if Aro somehow collected such a rare gift. My eyes are burning not only from the wind as I can feel us trying to gain some speed. But from the tears that keeps falling down my cheek. Everything I knew, the life I have learned to love up to now, all of that is gone. The only reminder of my previous life is that in my heart and whatever Mom placed in the bag on my back. Feeling the hopelessness of the chase, knowing that is only a matter of time when they would have closed the gap between us and then what will become of us……</p>
<p> Startled I wake up feeling the tears running down my cheek. It’s the same dream I have, night after night. One would think that it would have stopped having an effect on me. Slowly I move the heavy blankets off me and sit up. Taking in the room and its surroundings, wondering when I will be used to this room. When will all of this feel like home? I walk over to the dresser and open the drawer and reach far into the back of the drawer. Retrieving the little box I hide there, slowly I open the box and look at the one possession that I hold dearest. A new tear runs down my cheek as I think of Jake, looking at the promise bracelet he gave me. Blinded by the tears in my eyes I run to the bed and cover my mouth with the pillow, pouring my heart and soul out with each sob. After the sobbing subsides I look at the time, knowing that my guarding duties wait. Slowly I make my way to bathroom, in an attempt to make my eyes less puffy, hoping I can once again disguise the tears that I have just shed. I look myself in the mirror and ready myself for the day. Near my door is the coat rack. The only coat on it is the black cloak I have come to know as my uniform, the one thing that unifies me with my brothers and sisters. I reach for the door and open it pulling the cloak over me and covering my head with the hood. I look up and see Demetri smiling at me, “Morning sister, I trust you slept well.” Faintly I smile back and nod my head as he reached for my hand, images of my dream now vivid in his mind. I gasp aloud and pull my hand away. Demetri looks at me and smirks, “Better not let Aro know you’re still dreaming of your puppy.” I bite my on my tongue and force the tears that are threatening to overtake me to stay away. I will not cry in front of them. I straighten my shoulders and start walking to the feeding room. Knowing breakfast is about to be served and cringing at the thought of the scene I will be witnessing again. Demetri and I arrive in the room, to find that Heidi has just returned with this morning’s meal. I can hear Demetri already looking and calling dips on his favourite. I back up against the wall and brace myself as I see them encircling the poor humans….. With a scream I awake, drenched in sweat. My heart feels as if it’s about to jump out of my chest. I look around trying to make out where I am. When I am greeted by my room filled with all my favourite things. I look at the bed side table and see the photos of me and my family and the one of me and Jake. A huge sigh of relief escape my lips knowing that it all was just a dream. A very bad nightmare.</p>Who says boys have more fun.tag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-10-15:3404507:BlogPost:7945712011-10-15T09:54:56.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
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Jake and I have decided to do a few more <span id="misspell-0"><span id="yui_3_2_0_1_13186717257762935">unconventional</span></span> things together. Or coming to think of it maybe, it is the typical thing that couples do. Anyway, we decided to go and see some expo's that was showing in <span id="misspell-1"><span>Seattle</span></span> and make a day out of it.…
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Jake and I have decided to do a few more <span id="misspell-0"><span id="yui_3_2_0_1_13186717257762935">unconventional</span></span> things together. Or coming to think of it maybe, it is the typical thing that couples do. Anyway, we decided to go and see some expo's that was showing in <span id="misspell-1"><span>Seattle</span></span> and make a day out of it. The one expo that was the most memorable, was the remote control car toy and hobbies expo. I have never seen Jake's eyes light up so much. I think we stopped at every little car and the ones you could try out, we <span id="misspell-2"><span id="yui_3_2_0_1_13186717257763092">queued</span></span> for. <br/>I did not mind at all, to be honest I <span id="misspell-3"><span id="yui_3_2_0_1_13186717257763178">actually</span></span> enjoyed it <span id="misspell-4"><span>allot</span></span>. The added bonus being that I have a boyfriend who know all the lingo and he could explain to me in detail about each one. <br/>It was so amazing just to have the day for just the two of us. Jake has been so busy with the cars these days that our time together has been very little. I think that's why we planned the day to <span id="misspell-5"><span>Seattle</span></span>. Some time to get away and to just be with one another. Being with Jake I enjoyed every minute of it. I must say at first I was a bit apprehensive to going to the expo , but we ended up having a great time. <br/>We also did some things that I liked. Shoe shopping was of course on top of the list as I saw a pair in a magazine lately and had to go and see if it was available. Which of course it was and is now sitting in my closet. <br/>While we were at the expo, I noticed that Jake was looking at a certain car more <span id="misspell-6"><span>regularly</span></span> than the others. In fact every time we went into a new direction, somehow we managed to come back to that car. So obviously it meant, he was quite keen on it. I have been wanting to buy him something. Just because I love you gift, but have been unable to think of a great idea. So while he was distracted by another stall, I went over to the one with the car that he was looking at so many times. Suddenly I got a brilliant idea. Knowing that Dad would see this as an emergency I quickly took out my <span id="misspell-7"><span id="yui_3_2_0_1_13186717257763607">credit</span></span> card and paid for the car. <span id="misspell-8"><span id="yui_3_2_0_1_13186717257763515">Making</span></span> sure Jake did not notice. I arranged with the stall owner to have it <span id="misspell-9"><span id="yui_3_2_0_1_13186717257763702">delivered</span></span> to my house in the next couple of days. <br/>So today it arrived, of course I could not give Jake the gift if I did not have it tested out. So I went to the one person I knew would be the most helpful. Uncle Emmett and the two of us spend most afternoon "testing" the remote control truck I got Jake.<br/>I am very excited to give it to Jake but I must admit, part of me would love to keep it for myself. I know, sounds crazy right. But who says only boys have fun with toys.Surviving the Elementstag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-09-11:3404507:BlogPost:7730102011-09-11T09:17:37.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
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<p>Mom sat me down; I could see on her face that she was concerned even though she tried to hide it. At first I was panic stricken. Did I miss the deadline for my school project? I was so sure that I still had a few more days to finalize the project.</p>
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<p>With great relief, Mom let me know that it was not the project she wanted to discuss. All she wanted was to let…</p>
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<p>Mom sat me down; I could see on her face that she was concerned even though she tried to hide it. At first I was panic stricken. Did I miss the deadline for my school project? I was so sure that I still had a few more days to finalize the project.</p>
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<p>With great relief, Mom let me know that it was not the project she wanted to discuss. All she wanted was to let me know, that Daddy is taking me camping. For a moment, I was sad that Mom would not join us, but my excitement quickly replaced all sad feelings.</p>
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<p>I jumped up and raced up stairs, needing to start packing. Even though we would only leave in two days time I just could not wait. Besides deciding what to take is not that easy.</p>
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<p>Then I phoned Jake and shared my good news with him. Knowing that I will miss him very much, we made plans to spend some quality time once I get back.</p>
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<p>Finally camping day arrived. Daddy woke me early and already had the car packed. I could only smile as I saw all the things he had packed. Making sure that every need has been seen to. After all camping for Daddy was a lot different than it was for me. For instance, Dad don’t need to sleep or eat, I on the other hand need all the comforts we take for granted.</p>
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<p>After walking quite a distance, we reached our destination; it was the most amazing place. The trees where so tall and green and there was a small lake running along the camp site. It took my breath away and for a moment we just stood there and took in all the beauty of our surroundings.</p>
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<p>Dad and I got to work immediately and started setting up the tent, making fire and seeing that everything was in order. Once that was done we decided to do some fishing, I was very thankful that Jake and Billy have shown me how to fish. Even if I am saying so myself, I think I did very well. Afterwards we went back to camp and Dad prepared the fish for my supper.</p>
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<p>The time away with Dad was amazing and magical. We talked for hours and then at times just enjoyed the peace and quite with one another. We ended the trip with a hunt. I usually go hunting with Jake, but it was so special to have a hunt with Dad again.</p>
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<p>I hope that we get to do this more often, I love the time I get to spent with Mom and Dad. But just like every other girl time spent with Daddy is always magical and special.</p>Dreams of the futuretag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-09-08:3404507:BlogPost:7696002011-09-08T09:00:00.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
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<p><span class="font-size-4" style="color: #ff00ff;">Love is always in abundance around me. You don’t just find it in the love my family have for one another. You only have to look at Grandpa and Grandma, Aunt Rose and Uncle Emmett, Aunt Alice and Uncle Jasper. Not forgetting my Mom and Dad.</span></p>
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<p><span class="font-size-4" style="color: #ff00ff;">It has always…</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">Love is always in abundance around me. You don’t just find it in the love my family have for one another. You only have to look at Grandpa and Grandma, Aunt Rose and Uncle Emmett, Aunt Alice and Uncle Jasper. Not forgetting my Mom and Dad.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">It has always been this way. From the first moment I was aware of the world around me. Growing up among so much love has been nothing less than amazing. At times I feel guilty, that even with being immersed in this much love, I want more.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">You see, I want the love that my Aunts and Uncle’s share. The love I can see when they look at each other and it seems like the world and everything it has disappeared. That’s what I want.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">That’s also what I have, yes I am lucky enough to not only desire it. No, I am lucky enough to experience it. There is only one person on this entire earth, no universe that makes me feel loved in that way.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">Jacob Black, he is the one who is I love with that much conviction. The centre of my world, when he is around it’s as if everything else just disappears. Nothing else matter or register and all I want is to be with him. To be near him, to co- exist in the same moment of time.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">I sometimes look at the other members of La Push and their imprints. You would think that they all have the same look about them. That imprinting has the same kind of presence in all those who has been lucky enough to have found their soul mate. But yet each one has a different look, when gazing in one another eyes. I think it’s a look that changes as the relationship changes. Yet it’s all a look of completeness and total bliss. Since recently I was just one who noticed it but slowly as Jake’s and mine relationship changed, I was lucky enough to have received the look.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">It is with this look in mind that I smile when I think of the future. When I let my mind and imagination drift into someday. I see me and Jake. I see and we have happiness in abundance around us. I see my family and his co – existing in peace and harmony. I see me and him forever and ever.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">The best part of my dreams is the knowledge that they will someday be a reality and maybe even more than, I could ever have imagined.</span></p>
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<p> </p>Daddy's little girltag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-08-28:3404507:BlogPost:7561122011-08-28T21:30:00.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
<p><span class="font-size-4" style="color: #ff00ff;">He was the first one to understand me. He was the one who loved me instantly and who went to all extreme’s to keep me safe. His hands where the ones who held me and his eyes looked upon me for the first time. He is my Dad. My Hero.</span></p>
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<p><span class="font-size-4" style="color: #ff00ff;">There is a bond between us something so strong and fragile at the same time. A bond I treasure with all my heart. Of course at times it gets…</span></p>
<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">He was the first one to understand me. He was the one who loved me instantly and who went to all extreme’s to keep me safe. His hands where the ones who held me and his eyes looked upon me for the first time. He is my Dad. My Hero.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">There is a bond between us something so strong and fragile at the same time. A bond I treasure with all my heart. Of course at times it gets a bit embarrassing, that he can hear my thoughts but even with this gift, my dad always tries to give me some privacy.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">I know that he would move heaven and earth for me and I would do the same for him. He is someone I know I can rely on and who is always there for me. There is nothing I can not tell him.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">I think in his eyes I will forever be his little girl. I kind of like that notion. Makes me feel loved and save. It’s strange sometimes to think that I will have an eternal lifetime with Mom and Dad. We will always be in one another’s life. That to me is so amazing and such a blessing and gift.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">Daddy, you never even entertained the notion that you could be a parent. But when you became one you took it with so much seriousness and joy. You have been protecting me from the first time you could hear me. You are always there for me to talk to. You care for all my needs even if it means you have to go do groceries more than once a week. I know the fact that I am growing so fast is something that takes a bit getting used to, but you have always treated me in a way that has adjusted with each growth spurt I have had so far.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">Thank you for loving me and caring for me and I will always want to be my daddy’s little girl.</span></p>
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<p><span class="font-size-4" style="color: #ff00ff;">There is this little coffee shop in town. I love going there and the owners know me quite well. They have this cozy nook where I usually have a cup of coffee or hot chocolate. I love sitting there watching the girls and boys walk past. Wondering how it would be to be friends with them. How it would be to be your average teenage girl.</span></p>
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<p><span class="font-size-4" style="color: #ff00ff;">I look like your average 16 year old…</span></p>
<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">There is this little coffee shop in town. I love going there and the owners know me quite well. They have this cozy nook where I usually have a cup of coffee or hot chocolate. I love sitting there watching the girls and boys walk past. Wondering how it would be to be friends with them. How it would be to be your average teenage girl.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">I look like your average 16 year old girl. I might sound a bit older but in years I am only 4 soon to be 5 looking like 17.</span></p>
<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">Yes, I am not your average girl. I am a vampire hybrid.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">But yet I find myself thinking and feeling just like an average girl. I have dreams and desires. I have plans for the future. Places I want to see and experience.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">I also know that there is a lot I will never experience that an average girl will get to experience. Things like growing old with the person I love. For in two years time I will have achieved my full growth. After that I will stay the way I am just like the other females in my family and the other covens we call our friends.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">Although there all these things I may never get to experience. I still know that I am so much luckier than any other average girl.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">The love I have from my mom and dad is so strong and so deep. Deeper than any bond there is between parent and child. The love I have from the rest of my family is just as amazing. Unlike other average girls I have the most amazing boyfriend. Jacob who not only is my best friend but so much more and I know that he will always be in my life and I in his. Together Forever.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">So while at times I wonder if being average is better, I know in my heart and soul that I am perfect just the way I am. I don’t want my life any different from what I have now.</span></p>
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<p><span style="color: #ff00ff;" class="font-size-4">I am a girl just not your average girl.</span></p>Dear Momtag:thecullensonline.ning.com,2011-08-24:3404507:BlogPost:7524622011-08-24T20:24:51.000ZRenesmee Black-Cullenhttp://thecullensonline.ning.com/profile/RenesmeeCullen
Today I went into town. I felt like just taking a break and go for a nice cup of coffee. While I was sitting at my table paging through a magazine, a pregnant lady walked in. I think she must be quite close to full term.<br />
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<p>But what I noticed more was the look in her eyes. The happiness and contentment. I watch as she softly rubbed her hand across her tummy and smiled.</p>
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<p>I found myself smiling. I think I have been thinking a lot about my birth these days with my birthday…</p>
Today I went into town. I felt like just taking a break and go for a nice cup of coffee. While I was sitting at my table paging through a magazine, a pregnant lady walked in. I think she must be quite close to full term.<br />
<p> </p>
<p>But what I noticed more was the look in her eyes. The happiness and contentment. I watch as she softly rubbed her hand across her tummy and smiled.</p>
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<p>I found myself smiling. I think I have been thinking a lot about my birth these days with my birthday coming up soon. I remembered my time in your womb. I remember as soon as I was able to understand knowing that you loved me more than life itself. I could feel your protectiveness surround me and shelter me.</p>
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<p>I knew it was not easy for you and that my growing was causing you pain. None the less your love never faded but instead it grew stronger with each minute. I will always be connected to you in a way that not many can understand. I remember when I knew dad could hear me and he could tell you just how much I love you.</p>
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<p>You are till this day my biggest inspiration in life. Your kindness and love is what makes you so amazing. Your strength and protectiveness for your family is what motivates me to be the best I can be. You are my guiding light and helping me to shape the woman I will be. I could never in a thousand words tell you how much I love you. I could show but even that seems not enough.</p>
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<p>You are not only my mother but my confidant and my closet friend. You know me so well and your guidance is something I value very highly. So as I near my 5<sup>th</sup> Birthday I am just once again reminded of your love and commitment to my safety and the well being.</p>
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<p>I know there is a saying “Nobody is perfect”. But to me that is not true because I have seen perfection and I have the honor to call her Mom.</p>
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<p>Thank you for your love and care and protection.</p>
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<p>I found this poem and it makes me think of you:</p>
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<p><strong>Relationship of Mother and Daughter</strong><br/> You can see it in their eyes,<br/> in tender hugs and long good-byes, <br/> a love that only moms and daughters know. <br/> <br/> You can see it in their smiles, <br/> through passing years and changing styles, <br/> a friendship that continually seems to grow. <br/> <br/> You can see it in their lives, <br/> the joy each one of them derives, <br/> in just knowing that the other one is there...<br/> <br/> To care and to understand, <br/> lend an ear or hold a hand, <br/> and to celebrate the memories they share. <br/> - <em>Anonymous</em></p>